be his name. Such fatigues and hardships serve to wean me from the earth, and will make heaven the sweeter. Formerly, when I was thus exposed, I was ready to please myself with the thoughts of a comfortable house, a warm fire, and other outward comforts; but now these have less place in my heart (through the grace of God,) and my eye is more to God for comfort. In this world I expect tribulation: and it does not now appear strange to mc; I do not, in seasons of difficulty, flatter myself that it will be better hereafter; but rather think how much worse it might be; how much greater trials others of God's children have endured; and how much greater are yet perhaps reserved for me. Blessed be God, that he makes the thoughts of my journey's end a great comfort to me under my sharpest trials; and scarce ever lets these thoughts be attended with terror, but frequently with joy.'

From this time, November, 1744, he continued at Delaware till the following month in the next year, actively engaged in discharging the various duties of his arduous employment; preaching frequently, and visiting his Indians, from house to house, and from day to day.

His exercises of mind, during this period, were like those before recorded. Sometimes he was greatly dejected; and at others, comforted in enjoying the peace of God, which passeth understanding. The most remarkable passages I shall here transcribe.

"Friday, November 23. Visited a sick mån: discoursed and prayed with him. Then visited another house, where one was dead and laid out: looked on the corpse, and longed that my time might come to depart, that I might be with Christ."

Within the next twelve days he spent much time in hard labor, with others, to make for him. self a little cottage, to live in by himself.

"Dec. 6. Having now a happy opportunity of being retired in a house of my own, I set apart this day for secret prayer and fasting, to implore the blessing of God on myself, on my poor people, on my friends, and on the church of God. And now God was pleased to give me a discovery of the plague of my own heart, more affecting than I have of late had. And especially I saw my sinfulness in this, that when God had withdrawn himself, instead of living and dying in pursuit of him, I have been disposed to one of these two things, either to yield an unbecoming respect to some earthly objects, as if happiness were to be derived from them; or to be secretly froward and impatient, and unsuitably desirous of death. That which often drove me to this impatient desire of death, was a despair of doing good in life. But now God made me sensible of my sin, and enabled me to cry to him for forgiveness. Yet this was not all I wanted; for my soul appeared: exceedingly polluted; and I wanted to be purified 'By the blood of sprinkling that cleanseth from all sin.' And this I was enabled to pray for in faith. I enjoyed much more intenseness, fervency, and spirituality, than I expected: God was better to me than my fears. I was enabled to persevere in prayer till the evening: I saw so much need of divine help, in every respect, that I knew not how to leave off; and had forgot that I needed food.

"Lord's-day, Dec. 9. I preached, both parts of the day, at a place called Greenwich, about ten miles from my own house. In the first discourse I had scarce any warmth. In the intermission season. L

got alone among the bushes, and cried to ing in great anguish, that I could not addr with more compassion, and tender affectio I saw I could not get of myself, any mo could make a world. In the latter exercise be the Lord, I had some fervency, both i and preaching; and in the application I wa to address precious souls with affection, te and importunity. The Spirit of God w the effects were apparent, tears running do cheeks.

"12. I was very weak; but assisted prayer, and enabled with sweetness to cry Lord Jesus! come quickly.' My soul lo God, for the living God. O how delightf pray under such influences! How much b one's necessary food! I had at this time no tion to eat (though late in the morning;) fo food appeared wholly tasteless. I visited an ed to the Indians in the afternoon, but und dejection. I found my interpreter under s cern for his soul, which was some comfo I longed greatly for his conversion, poured soul to God for him, and was enabled to with God.

"13. I spent the day in fasting and p implore the Divine blessing, more especial poor people; in particular for my interpr three or four more under some concern souls: but in the evening it seemed as if I to pray for nothing so much as for the p sins committed in the day past. The s

me more of my weakness without Christ than I knew before.

"Lord's-day, Dec. 16. I was so overwhelmed with dejection, that I knew not how to live: I longed for death exceedingly; my soul was sunk into deep waters, and the floods were ready to drown me: I was so much oppressed, that my soul was in a kind of horror: I had no distressing doubt about my own state, but would have cheerfully ventured (as far as I could know) into eternity. While I was going to preach to the Indians, my soul was in anguish; I despaired of doing any good. But at last I insisted on the evidences of Christianity from the miracles of Christ: and God helped me to make a close application to those that refused to believe. I was encouraged to find, that God enabled me to be faithful once more. Then I went and preached to another company of them; but was very weary and faint. In the evening I was something refreshed, and enabled to pray and praise God with composure and affection: I was now willing to live, and longed to do more for God than my weak state of body would admit of. 'I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me;' and I am willing to spend and be spent in his service.

"18. I went to the Indians, and discoursed to them near an hour; and at last God helped me to speak with warmth. My interpreter also was amazingly assisted; and I doubt not but the Spirit of God was upon him. And presently most of the grown persons were much affected, and the tears ran down their cheeks; and one old man (I suppose an hundred years old) was so affected, that he wept, and seemed convinced of the importance of what I taught them. I staid with them a considerable time,

exhorting them; and came away, lifting up my heart to God, and encouraged my interpreter tostrive to enter in at the strait gate.

"Jan. 9, 1745. In the morning, God was pleased to remove that gloom which has of late oppressed. my mind, and gave me freedom and sweetness in prayer. I was encouraged to plead for grace for myself, and mercy for my poor Indians; and was sweetly assisted in my intercessions with God for others. Those things that of late seemed almost impossible, now appear not only possible, but easy. My soul so much delighted to continue instant in prayer, at this blessed season, that I had no desire for my necessary food, I even dreaded leaving off praying at all, lest I should lose this spirituality, and this blessed thankfulness.. I felt now quite willing to live, and undergo all trials that might remain for me in a world of sorrow; but still longed for heaven, that I might glorify God in a perfect

manner.

"14. I spent this day under a great degree of bodily weakness and disorder. It pains me that I live so much of my time for nothing. I long to do much in little time, and if it might be the Lord's will, to finish my work speedily in this tiresome world. I am sure, I do not desire to live for any thing in this tiresome world: and through grace I am not afraid to look the king of terrors in the face; I know I shall be afraid, if God leaves me;. and therefore I think it is always my duty to lay in for that solemn hour. But for a considerable time, my soul has rejoiced to think of death in its. nearest approaches; and even when I have been very weak and seemed nearest eternity. 'Not unto me, not unto me, but to God be the glory.