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miserable, and there was nothing in such a sight to deserve God's love or pity.

"In this frame of mind he came to publ c worship this evening, and while I was inviting sinners to come to Christ naked and empty, without any goodness of their own to recommend them to his acceptance; he thought, that he had often tried to come and give up his heart to Christ, and he used to hope, that some time or other he should be able to do so. But now he was convinced he could not, and it seemed utterly vain for him ever to try any more: nor did he now hope for a better opportunity hereafter, as he had formerly done, because he saw, and was fully convinced, his own strength would for ever fail.

"While he was musing in this manner, he saw he said, with his heart, (which is a common phrase among them) something that was unspeakably good and lovely, and what he had never seen before; and 'This stole away his heart whether he would or no.' He did not, he said, know what it was he saw. He did not say, 'This is Jesus Christ;' but it was such glory and beauty as he never saw before. He did not now give away his heart so as he had formerly attempted to do, but it went away of itself after that glory he then discovered. He used to try to make a bargain with Christ, to give up his heart to him, that he might have eternal life for it. But now he thought nothing about himself, but his mind was wholly taken up with the unspeakable excellency of what he then beheld.

"After some time he was wonderfully pleased with the way of salvation by Christ; so that it seemed unspeakably better to be saved altogether by the mere free grace of God in Christ, than to have any

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hand in saving himself. And the cons that he appears to retain a relish of div and to maintain a life of true religion.

"Lord's-day, Jan. 26. After public was in a sweet and solemn frame of min to God that he had made me in som faithful in addressing precious souls, but g I had been no more fervent in my work; a affected towards all the world, longing sinner might be saved; and could not tained any bitterness towards the worst en In the evening, I rode to Elizabethto riding I was almost constantly engaged i my heart to God, lest I should lose that venly solemnity and composure of soul Afterwards, I was pleased to think, that eth: and thought, I could never be unea of his dispensations; but must be entire whatever trials he should cause me or hi encounter. I never felt more divine s composure of mind: I could freely ha dearest earthly friend, for the society and spirits of just men made perfect:' m soared aloft to the blessed Author of enjoyment; I viewed the emptiness and tory nature of the most desirable earth any further than God has seen in them: for a life of spirituality and inward purit which I saw there could be no true pleas

"28. The Indians in these parts havin past run themselves in debt by their exces

subsist together in these parts, if these lands should drop out of their hands, thought it my duty to use my utmost endeavors to prevent it. And having acquainted the gentlemen concerned in this mission with the affair, they thought it proper to expend the money they had been collecting for the religious interest of the Indians (at least a part of it,) for the discharging of their debts, and securing these lands. And having received orders from them, I answered, in behalf of the Indians, eighty-two pounds five shillings, New Jersey currency.

"31. This day the person I had engaged for a schoolmaster among the Indians, arrived among us, and was heartily welcomed by my people. Whereupon I distributed several dozen of primers, among the children and young people.

"February 1. My schoolmaster entered upon his business among the Indians.—He has generally about thirty children and young persons in his school in the day time, and about fifteen married people in his evening-school. The number of the latter sort of persons being less than it would be, if they could be more constant at home.

"In the evening I catechised in my usual method. Towards the close of my discourse, a surprising power seemed to attend the word. One man considerably in years, who had been a remarkable drunkard, a conjurer and murderer, that was awakened some months before, was now brought to great cxtremity, so that he trembled for hours together, and apprehended himself just dropping into hell, without any power to rescue or relieve himself.Divers others appeared under great concern, as well as he, and solicitous to obtain a saving change."

Feb. 10. He set out on a journey to the Forks

of Delaware, to visit the Indians there. He performed the journey under great weakness, and sometimes was exercised with much pain: he arrived at his own house at the Forks, on Friday.

"I baptized three persons, two adults, and one ehild. There was a considerable melting in the assembly, while I was administering the ordinance. "God has been pleased to own and bless the administration of this, as well as of his other ordinances, among the Indians. There are some here that have been powerfully awakened at seeing others baptized. And some that have obtained relief and comfort, just in the season when this ordinance has been administered.

"Towards night I catechised. God made this a powerful season. There were many affected. Former convictions were powerfully revived. There was likewise one, who had been a vile drunkard, remarkably awakened. He appeared to be in great anguish of soul, wept and trembled, and continued so to do till near midnight. There was also a poor heavy-laden soul, who had been long under spiritual distress, that was now brought to a comfortable calm, and told me, 'She now saw and felt it was right God should do with her as he pleased.' And added, that the heavy burden she had laid under, was now removed: that she felt she never could do any thing to save herself, but must perish for ever if Christ did not do all for her. But Christ could save her, though she could do nothing to save herself.

"Lord's-day, Feb. 16. Knowing that divers of the Indians in those parts were obstinately set against Christianity, I thought it proper to have some of my people from Crosweeksung with me, in order to converse with them: hoping it might be a means to

convince them of the truth, to see and hear some of their own nation discoursing of divine things, and manifesting earnest desires that others might be brought out of Heathenish darkness, as themselves

were.

"And having taken half a dozen of the most serious and knowing persons, I this day met with them and the Indians of this place (sundry of whom could not have been prevailed upon to attend the meeting, had it not been for these Indians that accompanied me) and preached to them.-Some of them who had, in times past, been extremely averse to Christianity, now behaved soberly; though others laughed and mocked. However the word of God fell with such weight and power that several seemed to be stunned, and expressed a willingness to 'Hear me again of these matters.'

"After public worship I spent some time to convince those that mocked, of the truth and importance of what I had been insisting upon: and I had reason to think, that my endeavors took effect upon one of the worst of them.

"Those few Indians then present, who used to be my hearers in these parts (some having removed from thence to Crosweeksung,) seemed glad to see me again, although they had been so much attacked by some of the opposing Pagans, that they were almost afraid to manifest their friendship.

"In the evening I was in a composed frame of mind. It was exceedingly refreshing to think, that God had been with me, affording me some good measure of assistance. I found freedom in prayer for my dear friends and acquaintance. Blessed be the name of the Lord that ever I am enabled to do any thing for his interest and kingdom. Blessed be

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