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at evening tide according to his promise in Zech. xiv. 7. I should rather think, that the visions are not yet plainly disclosed ; and that the day, and year, in which the Lord will begin to make bare his arm openly, are Nill concealed from us.
I must say of Mr. Walsh, as he faid once to me concerning God, " I wish I could attend him every where, as Elisha did Elijah.” But since the will of God calls me from him, I must submit, and drink the cup pre. pared for me. I have not seen him, unless for a few moments, three or four times before divine service, We must meet at the throne of grace, or meet but feldom. O when will the communion of saints be complete ! Lord hasten the tiine, and let me have a place among thien that love thee, and love one another in fincerity.
I set out in two days for the country. O may I be faithful. Harmless like a dove, wife like a serpent, and bold as a lion for the cominon cause! O Lord do 11ot forsake me! Stand by the weakest of thy servants, and enable thy children to bear with me, and wrestle with thee in my behalf. , 0 bear with me; dear Sir, and give me your blessing every day, and the Lord will return it to you fevenfold. I am, Reverend and dear Sir, your unworthy fervant, 1. F.
AS it is never too late to do what multiplicity of business, rather than forgetfulnets, has forced us to defer, I am not alhamed, though after some months, to use the liberty you gave me, 'to enquire after the wel. fare of your foul; and that so much the more, as I am conscious I have not forgotten you at the throne of grace. O may my petitions have reached heaven, and forced from thence, at lealt some drops of those spi. ritual showers of righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost, which I implore for you.
Though, I trust, the unction from 'above teaches you all things needful to falvation, and especially the neceflity of continuing instant in prayer, and watching thereunto with all perseverance, yet, I think it my duty to endeavour to add wings to your desires after holiness, by enforcing them with mine. O were I buto clothed with all the righteousness of Christ, my prayers would avail much ; and the lukewarmness of my brethren would not increase my guilt, as being myself an instance of that coldness of love, which puts me upon interceding for them.
Though I speak of lukewarmness, I do not accuse you, Madam, of having given way to it; on the contrary, it is my duty, and the joy of my heart, to hope, that you stir up more and more the gift of God, which is in you; that the evidences of your intereft in a bleeding Lord get clearer every day ; that the love of Chrift constrains you more and more to deny yourself, take up your cross in all things, and follow him patiently, through bad and good report ; in a word, that continually leaving the things which are behind, you stretch forward, through funshine or darkness, towards the prize of your high calling in Jesus Christ-I inean a heart emptied of pride, and filled with all the fulness of God. This is the hope, which I delight to entertain of you ; and I describe it, not out of Aattery Madam, but with an intent that, if you fall short in any thing, these lines may be an instrument in the hand of God to ftir you up again, and make you look on all things as dung and drofs, in comparison of the excellency of the knowledge of Jesus Christ, with whom we ought to be crucified to the world, and the world to us.
I have often thought of you, Madain, in reading the letters of a Lady,* who was a Chritian, and an eminent Christian, not to say one of the brightest lights, that God has raised since the late revival of god. liness. The reproach of Christ was her crown of rejoicing, his cross her continual support, his followers her de greft companions, his example the pattern of her con
* Mrs. Lefevre. .
versation. She lived a faint, and died an angel. Each one of her letters may be a pattern for Chriitian correspondents, by the simplicity, edification, and love they breathe in every line. O when shall I write as she did! when my heart shall be full of God as hers was.
May the Lord enable you to walk in her steps, and grant ine to see you shining among the humble, loving Marys of this age, as she did but a few months ago. Her God is our God; the fame Spirit that animated her, is waiting at the door of our hearts, to cleanse thena and fill them with his confolation's, if we will but exclude the world, and let him in. Why fhould we then give way to despondency, and refuse to cherisi that lively hope, which if any one has, he will purify himself, even as God is pure ? Take courage then, Madam, and consider, that the hour of self-denial and painful wrestling with God will be short, and the time of victorious recompence as long as eterniży itself. May the Lord enable you and ine, to weigh that confideration in the balance of his fanctuary, and to act agreeably; and may that gracious Being, who invites the young man to honour him in the days of his youth, grant you to see him, whom he has given you, ponder those folemn truths betimes, and find by a happy experience, that none is happier than he, who takes early the Lord's yoke upon himself,
I conclude, by commending you to the Lord, and to the word of his grace, and recommending myself to your prayers, I am, Madam, your obedient servant for Christ's fake, I. F.
London, Dec. 12th, 1758. The Rev. Mr. Charles Wesley.
My dear Sir,
If my lilence was owing to forgetfulness, I should blulh at not availing myself more frequently of your permillion to wsite ; but the idea I entertain, that no. thing but you great condescension can make my corn
respondence fupportable, makes me fonetimes act in a manner quite contrary to the sentiments of my heart.
Before I left Tern, the Lord gave me a medicine to prepare me to suffer what awaited me here.
* * * This humiliation prepared me so well, that I was not surprized to learn, that a person in London had spread abroad many false and fcandalous things of me, during my absence ; and that the minds of many were prejudiced against me. In one sense, I took a pleature in thinking, that I was going to be rejected by the children of God, and that my Saviour would become more dear, under the idea, that as in heaven, fo now on earth, I should have none but him. The first time I appeared in the chapel, many were so offended, that it was with difficulty they could forbear interrupting me in my prayer, to tell me, Physician heal thyself. I was on the point of declining to officiate, fearing I should only give fresh offence; indeed, I should have done so, had it not been for my friend Bernon, who prefled me to stand firin, representing the triumph my filence would give my enemies, &c. His reasons anpeared fo cogent, that, as your brother did not reject niy assistance, I read prayers, and engaged to preach sometimes of a morning ; which I have accordingly continued to do. - The same day I arrived in London, our poor friend Bernon took to his bed, as if the Lord had waited iny prefence to give the blow. Three days after the fever increased, and appeared to be dangerous. The next day, which was Wednesday, he settled his temporal concerns. Friday evening he was free from fever, and I had some hopes of his life ; but on Saturday it appeared, that the fever was the lightest part of his malady, and the physician said, he would die of an infiammation in his bowels ; which was the case on Monday, after an illness of eight days. I fat up with him three nights, and saw him as often as I could by day; and, bleed be God, I did not see him for a mo. ment without the full assurance of faith. His soul was, in general, divided between the exercise of repentance, and of faith in the blood of the Lamb ; however, from time to time, repentance gave way to rejoicing ; and when he appeared better, he expressed much fear of returning to life. Nevertheless, one day, when I was not with him, he had a conflict with the enemy of his faith, which continued an hour or two, when he came off conqueror. The violence of the fever fome. times threw him into a delirium, and that was the cafe fome hours before his dissolution. The last words he uttered, before the strength of his disease deprived him of speech, were, 66 O what love! What love !" I have in my heart a clear testimony that he died the death of the just. Thus to recompence me for the injury Satan has done me by a false friend, the Lord has taken to himself a true one, whom he will restore to me again in the last great day : Such a loss is a real gain.
I fincerely rejoice in the health of Mrs. Welley.-Present my compliments to her not those of the children of this world, but those of the servants of
Christ; and don't forget to give your little Charles a · kiss of peace and prayer for me. Adieu. I. F.
London, March 22d, 1759.
My dear Sir,
YOU left me without perinitting me to say, farewell; but that shall not hinder me from wishing you a good journey, and I fatter myself, that you are in the habit of returning my prayers. I have even shared the joy of MrsWesley in feeing you again. Happier than the afflicted Jesus, you leave your own, and they regret your absence ; you return to your own, and they receive you with joy. You cannot yet be rendered perfect by sufferings; your father and mother have never forsaken you ; but, no matter, you have no doubt your afflictions; and probably, the Lord puts you fe