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suffer on a scaffold ? To be plucked and he stood for a few moments suddenly into the presence of my motionless, just within the door, with Maker in battle,* with all my sins his eyes fixed on the floor. In that upon my head ?' Suppose I were posture he continued till Mrs grovelling in the hopeless darkness had retired, shutting the door after of scepticism or infidelity ? Suppose her, when he turned suddenly toI were still to endure the agonies wards the easy-chair by the fire, in arising from disease in my spine ? which Mr E- - was sitting, much -Oh God !” exclaimed Mr E- agitated-approached, and falling

give me a more humble and grate- down on his knees, he covered his ful heart!”

eyes with his hands, through which

the tears presently fell like rain; Monday, 19th September.- Mr and after many choking_sobs and E-is still alive, to the equal as- sighs, faltered, “ Oh, Mr E-!" tonishment of Dr D.

and myself. « What do you want with me, Mr The secret must lie, I think, in his H-” enquired Mr Etranquil frame of mind. He is as low tone, but very calmly. happy as the day is long! Oh, that “Oh, kind, good, abused sir! I my latter days may be like his! I have behaved like a villain to you”was listening with feelings of de- “ Mr H-, I beg you will not light unutterable to E—'s descrip- distress me; consider I am in a very tion of the state of his mind-the poor and weak state.” perfect peace he felt towards all “ Don't, for God's sake, speak so mankind, and his humble and strong coldly, sir! I am heartbroken to hopes of happiness hereafter-when think how shamefully I have used the landlady of the house knocked you!” at the door, and on entering, told “ Well, then, strive to amend”Mr E-that a person was down Oh, dear, good Mr E-! can stairs very anxious to see him.- you forgive me?" Mr E-did “Who is it ?” enquired E

She

not answer. I saw he could not. The did not know. “ Has he ever been tears were nearly overflowing. The here before?”—“No; but she thought man seized his hand, and pressed it she had several times seen him about to his lips with fervency. the neighbourhood.”—“ What sort “ Rise, Mr H- rise! I do forof a person is he ?” enquired E- give you, and I hope that God will ! with a surprised air.—“Oh, he is a Seek His forgiveness, which will tall pale man, in a brown great-coat.” avail you more than mine !" E-requested her to go down and “Oh, sir!” exclaimed the man again, ask his name. She returned and covering his eyes with his hands,said, “ Mr H, sir.” E-on “ How very-VERY ill you lookhearing her utter the word, sudden- how pale and thin. It's I that have ly raised himself in bed; the little done it all-1, the d-dest". colour he had fled from his cheeks: “ Hush, hush, sir!" exclaimed Mr he lifted up his hands and exclaim- E-, with more sternness than I ed—“ What can the unhappy man had ever seen him exhibit, “ do not want with me?" He paused thought- curse in a dying man's room.” fully for a few moments.

“ You're

" Dying-dyingdying, sir ?” exof course aware who this is ?” he claimed the man, hoarsely, staring enquired of me in a whisper. I horror-struck at Mr E

and renodded. “Shew him up stairs,” said tiring a step from him. he, and the woman withdrew. “For “ Yes, James,” replied E“, your own sake, I beg you to be calm; mildly, calling him for the first time don't allow your feelings”- I was by his Christian name, “ I am asinterrupted by the door opening, and suredly dying—but not through you, just such a person as Mrs had or any thing you have done. Come, described entered, with a slow hesi. come, don't distress yourself unnetating step into the room. He held cessarily,” he continued in the kindhis hat squeezed in both his hands, est tones; for he saw the man con

* This was at the time of the Peninsular campaigns,

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tinued deadly pale, speechless, and reaching out his hand. "And if your clasping his hands convulsively over repentance is sincere, should it ever his breast-". Consider, James, my be in your power, remember whom daughter, Mrs

you have most heavily wronged, not "Oh, no, no, sir-no! It's I that me, but-but-Miss E- my poor have done it all; my ingratitude has niece. If you should ever be able broken your heart-I know it has ! to make her any reparation-"the -What will become of me?”—the tears stood in Mr È-'s eyes, and man resumed, still staring vacantly his emotions prevented his compleat Mr E

ting the sentence. “ Really you must James, I must not be agitated in leave me, James—you must-I am this way—it agitates me-you must too weak to bear this scene any leave the room unless you can be- longer,” said E- faintly, looking come calm. What is done is done; deadly pale. and if you really repent of it”

“ You had better withdraw, sir, “ Oh, I do, sir; and could almost and call some other time,” said I. weep tears of blood for it! But in. He rose, looking almost bewildered; deed, sir, it has been as much my thrust his hand into his breast-pocket, misfortune as my fault.”

and taking out a small packet, laid it “ Was it your misfortune or your hurriedly on MrE-'s lap-snatchfault that you kept that infamous ed his hand to his lips, and murwoman on whom you have squan- muring, “ Farewell, farewell, best of dered so much of your property-of men!"-withdrew. I watched him mine rather ?” enquired Mr E- through the window; and saw that with a mild expostulating air. The as soon as he had left the house, he man suddenly blushed scarlet, and set off, running almost at the top of continued silent.

his speed. When I returned to look “ It is right I should tell you that at Mr E-, he had fainted. He had it is your misconduct which has turn- opened the packet, and a letter lay ed me out, in my old age, from the open in his lap, with a great many house which has sheltered me all bank-notes. The letter ran as fol. my life, and driven me to die in this lows: “ Injured and revered sirpoor place! You have beggared my When you read this epistle, the miniece, and robbed me of all the hard serable writer will have fled from his earnings of my life-wrung from the country, and be on his way to Amesweat of my brow, as you well know, rica. He has abused the confidence James. James, how could your heart of one of the greatest and best of let you do all this?” The man made men, but hopes the enclosed sum him no answer. “ I am not angry

will shew he repented what he had with you, that is past-but I am done! If it is ever in his power he grieved-disappointed-shocked to will do more. J-H-" The find my confidence in you has been packet contained bank-notes to the so much abused.”

amount of L.3000. When E-had “Oh, sir, I don't know what it was recovered from his swoon, I had that infatuated me; but-never trust him conveyed to bed, where he lay a living man again, sir-never,” re- in a state of great exhaustion. He plied the man vehemently.

scarce spoke a syllable during the “ It is not likely I shall, James-1 time I continued with him. shall not have the opportunity,” said Mr E - calmly. The man's eye Tuesday.- Mr E-still suffers continued fixed on Mr E-, his from the effects of yesterday's excitelip quivered, in spite of his violent ment. It has, I am confident, hurried compression, and the fluctuating co- him far on his journey to the grave. lour in his cheeks shewed the agita- He told me he had been turning over tion he was suffering.

the affair in his mind, and considered " Do you forgive me, sir, for what that it would be wrong in him to reI have done?” he asked almost in- tain the L.3000, as it would be illeaudibly.

gal, and a fraud on H-'s other “Yes~if you promise to amend creditors; and this upright man had yes! Here is my hand—I do forgive actually sent in the morning for the you, as I hope for my own forgive- solicitor to the bankrupt's assignees, ness hereafter !" said Mr E- and put the whole into his hands,

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telling him of the circumstances un- for a yearly prize to the writer of the der which he had received it, and best summary of the progress of asking him whether he should not philosophy every year, in one of the be wrong in keeping it. The lawyer Scotch colleges; and ten pounds to told him that he might perhaps be be delivered every Christmas to ten legally, but not morally wrong-as poor men, as long as they lived, and the law certainly forbade such pay- who had already received the gratui. ments, and yet he was, by very far, ty for several years; "and to Jthe largest creditor. “ Let me act H- the full and hearty forgiveright, then, in the sight of God and ness, and prayers to God that he may man! Take the money, and let me return to a course of virtue and true come in with the rest of the credi- piety, before it is too late." tors.”—Mr withdrew. He must? How is it,” said he, addressing Dr have seen but seldom such an in. D- and me, " that you have neistance of noble conscientiousness! I ther of you said any thing to me about remonstrated with Mr E “No, examining my body after my deno, Doctor,” he replied, " I have en- cease ?” Dr Dareplied, that he deavoured strictly to do my duty had often thought of asking his perduring life-I will not begin roguery mission, but had kept delaying from on my death-bed !”_" Possibly you day to day. “ Why ?” enquired may not receive a penny in the pound, E- with a smile of surprise, “ do Mr E-” said I.

you fancy I have any silly fears or “ But I shall have the comfort of prejudices on the subject? That I quitting life with a clear conscience!" am anxious about the shell when the

kernel is gone? I can assure you that

it would rather give me pleasure Monday.-[A week afterwards.)– than otherwise, to think that by an The“ weary wheels of life" will soon examination of my body, the cause « stand still !” All is calm and se- of medical science might be advanrene with Eas a summer eren- ced, and so minister a little to my ing's sunset! He is at peace with all species. I must however, say you the world, and with his God. It is NAY; for I promised my poor wife like entering the porch of heaven, that I would forbid it. She had preand listening to an angel, to visit and judices, and I have a right to respect converse with Em This morning them.” he received the reward of his noble Wednesday.--He looked much re. conduct in the matter of H's duced this evening. I had hurried bankruptcy. The assignees have to his lodgings, to communicate wound up the affairs, and found them what I considered would be the granot near so desperate as had been tifying intelligence, that the highest apprehended. The business was still prize of a foreign learned society had to be carried on in H-'s name; just been awarded him, for his work and the solicitor, who had been sent

, together with a fellow. for by E to receive the L.3000 ship. My heated and hurried manin behalf of the assignees, called this ner somewhat discomposed him; morning with a cheque for L.3500, and before I had communicated my and a highly complimentary letter news, he asked, with some agitation, from the assignees. They informed “What!-Some new misfortune ?”him that there was every prospect When I had told him my errand, of the concern's yet discharging the “ Oh, bubble ! bubble! bubble!” he heavy amount of his claim, and that exclaimed, shaking his head with a they would see to its being paid to melancholy smile, “would I not give whomsoever he might appoint.- 10,000 of these for a poor man's H— had set sail for America, the blessing? Are these, these, the trifles very day he had called on E-, and men toil through a life for 2-Oh, if had left word that he should never it had pleased God to give me a single return. E- altered his will this glimpse of what I now see, thirty evening, in the presence of myself years ago, how true an estimate I and Dr D- He left about L.4000 should have formed of the littleness to his niece, “and whatever sums -the vanity of human applause! might be from time to time paid in How much happier would my end from H's business;" five guineas have been! How much nearer

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should I have come to the character necessity for such motives is, as it of a true philosopher-an impartial, were, the pure ore of his soul adulindependent, sincere teacher of the terated. Minerva's jealous eyes can truth, for its own sake !"-" But detect the slightest vacillation or inhonours of this kind are of admirable consistency in her votaries, and disservice to science, Mr EM," said cover her rival even before the votary I, “as supplying strong incentives himself is sensible of her existence ; and stimulants to a pursuit of philo- and withdraws from her faithless sophy."

admirer, in cold disdain, perlaps * Yes--but does it not argue a de- never to return. Do you think that fect in the constitution of men's Archimedes, Plato, or Sir Isaac minds to require them? What is the Newton, would have cared astraw for use of stimulants in medicine, Doc- even royal honours ? The true test, tor?-Don't they presuppose a mor

believe me—the almost infallible cribid sluggishness in the parts they terion of a man's having attained to are applied to? Do you ever sti- true greatness of mind to the true mulate a healthy organ ?-So is it philosophic temper, is, his utter inwith the little bonours and distinc- difference to all sorts of honours and tions we are speaking of. Directly distinctions. Why ?-_What seeks he a man becomes anxious about ob

or proposes to seek-but TRUTH ? taining them, his mind has lost its Is he to stop in the race, to look after healthy tone-its sympathies with Atalanta's apples ? He should endure truth—with real philosophy.” honours, not go out of his way to

“ Would you, then, discourage seek them. It one apple hitches in striving for them ? Would you his vest, he may carry it with him, banish honours and prizes from the not stop to dislodge it. Scientific scientific world ?"

distinctions are absolutely necessary “ Assuredly—altogether-did we in the present state of society, bebut exist in a better state of society cause it is defective. A mere ambithan we do.* * What is the proper tious struggle for college honours, spirit in which, as matters at present through rivalry, has induced many a stand, a philosopher should accept man to enter so far upon philosophiof honours ?-Merely as evidences, cal studies, as that their charms, testimonials, to the multitude of those unfolding in proportion to his prowho are otherwise incapable of ap- gress, have been, of themselves, at last preciating his merits, and would set sufficient to prevail upon him to go him down as a dreamer-a visionary onwards—to love science for herself —but that they saw the estimation alone. Honours make a man open in which he was held by those who his eyes, who would else have gone are likely to canvass his claims to his grave with them shut: and strictly. They compel the deference, when once he has seen the divinity if not respect, of the ó Told... A of truth, he laughs at obstacles, and philosopher ought to receive them, follows it, through evil and good therefore, as it were, in self-defence report-if his soul be properly con-a shut-mouth to babbling envious stituted—if it have in it any of the gainsayers. Were all the world philo- nobler sympathies of our nature.sopbers, in the true sense of the word, That is my homily on honours," said not merely would honours be unne- he, with a smile. “ I have not wilcessary, but an insult-a reproach. fully preached and practised different Directly, a philosopher is conscious things, I assure you,” he continued, that the love of fame--the ambition with a modest air, “but through life to secure such distinctions, is gradu. have striven to act upon these prinally insinuating-interweaving itself ciples. Still, I never saw so clearly with the very texture of his mind; as at this moment how small my that considerations of that kind are buccess has been to what an extent becoming necessary in any degree to I have been influenced by incorrect prompt him to undertake or prose- motives--as far as an over-valuing cute scientific pursuits, he may write of the world's honours may be so ICHABOD on the door of his soul's considered. Now I see through no temple--for the glory is departed. such magnifying medium; the mists His motives are spurious; his fires and vapours are dispersing ; and. I false! To the exact extent of the begin to see that these objects are in

themselves little, even to nothing. was melted within me. The silk cap ness. The general retrospect of had slipped from his head, and his my life is far from satisfactory," long loose silvery hair streamed over continued E—with a sigh—" and his bed-dress: his appearance was fills me with real sorrow!"_"Why?” that of a dying prophet of old! But -I enquired with surprise. “ Why, I find I am going on at too great for this one reason-because I have length for the reader's patience, and in a measure sacrificed my religion must pause. For my own part I could to philosophy! Oh-will my Maker linger over the remembrances of thus be put off with the mere lees these solemn scenes for ever: but I the refuse-of my time and ener- shall hasten on to the “ last scene of gies ? For one hour in the day, that all.” It did not take place till near I have devoted to him, have í not a fortnight after the interview above given twelve or fourteen to my own narrated. His manner during that pursuits ? What shall I say of this time evinced no tumultuous ecstashortly-in a few hours-perhaps sies of soul; none of the boisterous moments—when I stand suddenly in extravagance of enthusiasm. His the presence of God-when I see departure was like that of the sun, Him face to face !-Oh, Doctor !- sinking gradually and finally, lower my heart sinks and sickens at the lower-lower-no sudden upthought !-shall I not be speechless as flashings-no quivering-no flickerone of old ?”

ing unsteadiness about his fading I told him I thought he was unne- rays! cessarily severe with himself—that he “ wrote bitter things against him- Tuesday, 13th October.-Miss self.”

E sent word that her uncle ap“ I thought so once, nay, all my peared dying, and had expressed a life, myself-Doctor"-said he, so- wish to see both Dr D-- and me, lemnly—“but, mark my words as a I therefore dispatched a note to Dr dying man-you will think as I do D, requesting him to meet me now when you come to be in my at a certain place, and then hurried circumstances !”

through my list of calls, so as to have The above, feebly conveyed per- finished by three o'clock. By four haps to the reader, may be considered we were both in the room of the THE LAST WORDS OF A PHILO- dying philosopher. Miss E--sat SOPHER. They made an impression by his bedside, her eyes swollen with on my mind which has never been ef- weeping, and was in the act of kissfaced; and I trust never will. The ing her uncle's cheek when we enreader need not suspect him of“ pro- tered. Mr F- an exemplary sing." The above were uttered with clergyman, who had been one of no pompous,swelling, pedantic swag- E-'s earliest and dearest friends, ger of manner, but with the simplest, sat at the foot of the bed, with a most modest air, and in the most sil- copy of Jeremy Taylor's “ Holy Livery tones of voice I ever listened ving and Dying," from which he was to. He often paused, from faintness: reading in a low tone, at the request and at the conclusion, his voice grew of E--. The appearance of the almost inaudible, and he wiped the latter was very interesting. At his thick-standing dews from his fore- own instance, he had not long before head. He begged me, in a low whis- been shaved, washed, and had a per, to kneel down, and read him one change of linen; and the bed was of the church prayers--the one ap- also but recently made, and was not pointed for those in prospect of at all tumbled or disordered. The death : I took down the prayer-book, mournful tolling of the church-bell and complied, though my emotions for a funeral was also heard at interwould not suffer me to speak in more vals, and added to the solemnity of than an often-interrupted whisper. the scene. I have seldom felt in such He lay, perfectly silent throughout, a state of excitement as I was on first with his clasped hands pointing up- entering the room. He shook hands wards; and when I had concluded, with each of us, or rather we shook he responded feebly, but fervently, his hands, for he could hardly lift “ Amen Amen !"--and the tears them from the bed. « Well—thank gushed down his cheeks. My heart you for coming to bid me farewell !"

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