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many things, which to me are either unknown or forgotten, thou hast a perfect Knowledge,and exact Remembrance of. I ought therefore in all Reproofs and Reproaches to submit with Patience, even though my Heart condemn me not, because thou, who permitteft these things, art greater than my John 111 Heart, and knowest all things. Thus Reason and Religion both convince me I ought to behave my self; but if at any time Passion and Frailty have exceeded in too nice and tender a Sense of these Things, pardon, I · beseech thee, what is past, and enable me to be more resigned for the time to come. Thy Mercy alone will avail me more than all my laboured Excuses; and Pardon is what I rather chufe, than the most confident Testimony of my own Conscience. For though I should know nothing by my felf, yet am I not bereby justified; for be that judgeth me is the 1 Cor. iv. Lord. The Lord, who will one Day bring to light the hidden things of dishonifi y, even those which have escaped the Committer's own observation. And therefore if thou, Lord, should be extreme to mark what is done amiss, no Flesh living could be Pfal.cxxx, 3. justified in thy sight.
CHA P. LII.
Chrift.] T ET not, my Son, thy Labours or Suffer
l ings for me and thy Duty, or any other sort of Hardship or Tribulation in this World, so far damp chy Courage, but that my Promise till should be a sure Anchor-hold of Hope ; and this Reflection ever minister Comfort, that I am able to resompence thee not only beyond what is reasonable to
expect, but even impossible for thee to wish or imagine. Thy Toils will not continue very long, nor will thy Pain and Trouble always torment thee. Wait but a little longer, and look forward, and see how glorious a Prospect opens it self. How swiftly the End of all thy Sufferings approaches; and how suddenly Sorrow and Tumult vanish away. Even Time it self is not of everlasting continuance ; but that which is bounded within so very narrow a Space as this short Span of Life, cannot in any fair Computation be counted long, or great. · Proceed then in thy Duty with Vigour and undaunted Resolution; ply thy Work hard in my Vineyard, and fill the Station I have appointed thee to; thy Wages are certain
... and valuable, for I my self will be thy exGen. XVll. ceeding great Reward.
Persist in Writing, in Reading, in singing my Praises, in Lamenting thy own Sins, in silent Meditation, in Devout Prayer, in Fortitude and Patience; for the things prepared for them that love God are richly. worth these and greater Conflicts; all thou must do, all thou canst suffer, are in no degree worthy to be compared with them. The Day is coming, and fix'd in my unalterable Decree, adorn'd with the Triumphs of Joy and Peace; That mighty Revolution, when there alternate Successions of Day and Night shall cease ; and everlasting uninterrupted Light shall shine for ever; there shall be Lustre infinite, Satisfactions unbroken, unconceivable, Rest eternal, and above the Power of any future danger. There shall be then
... no place left for that melancholy Wish; O Rom. vii. that thou would't deliver me from the Body of this Death; no occasion for that Complaint, Wo is me,
that I am constrained to dwell with Melech, and Psalm cxx. to have my Habitation in this barren Wilderness.
For even the last Enemy shall be subdued, 1 Cor. xv, and Death it self destroyed. Salvation then
and Life shall Reign for ever ; Sorrow and Anguish, Sighs and Tears shall flee away ; a Crown of Rejoycing put upon every Head, and thou shalt be happy in the sweet Society of Saints and Angels, the Hele si Spirits of Just Men made perfect, and the Afa sembly of the First-born.
Oh! could'st thou now but see the Heavens open,' and with the ken of Mortal Eye behold the bright and everlasting Crowns of my Chosen ; were thy Heart large enough to admit a juft Idea of their Trophies and Glories, whom once the World despised, and thought not worthy to live upon the Earth; thou then would'st gladly embrace their Sufferings and Re
proaches, abandon all thy vain Desires of Worldly i Greatness; and disdain the perishing Pleasures of the
present Life. Humility and Patience would then appear in all their native Beauties ; and even Affliction and Ignominy display such Charms, as must attract thy Love, and make thee esteem the Reproaches of Chrift, greater Treasures and Gain, than all the Ma.. jesty and Honour,and most celebrated Reputation that
a mortal State is capable of. : i Attend then seriously to these important Truths,
for they, if considered and believed in good earnest will stop thy Mouth, and effectually silence all thy Complaints. For sure the Sufferings of a Moment cannot be thought too dear a price for eternal Happiness in exchange. Surely the Kingdom of God is no
trifling Concern; and when the lofing or attaining this Et lies before thee; nothing can be too much to prevent
that loss; nothing a hard Bargain for that infinite Advantage. Grovel then upon the Earth no longer, but stand Erect, and lift thy Eyes and Heart to Heaven. See there the blessed Effects, the mighty Success of all those sharp Conflicts, which my Saints, while in the Body underwent; the End of all their Tryals, and Adversities, their painful Severities and pious Laa
bours. These mortify'd afficted Men, once reputed
the Filth of the World, and the Off-scouring of 1 Cor. iv. allThings, the common Mark of Infolence and Malice, are now in perfect Joy; their Sorrows swallow'd up in Transporting Bliss and Comfort, their Dangers changed into secure Peace; their Labours into Ease and Sweet Repose ; their Persecutions and wrongful Accusations before the Bar of Men, into Thrones of Glory, where they fit and judge the World, and live, and rejoice, and reign with me for ever.
CHA P. XLIII. The Foys of Eternity, and Miseries of this present
Disciple] Blessed Mansions of the Heavenly Ci
ty! Obright and glorious Day of Eternal Light and Bliss ! A Day that never declines; a Sun that never sets, nor is obscured by any succeeding Night; but a State always chearful, always fixed, and secured from Change and Sorrow, from Danger and Decay. How do I pant and thirst after that happy Hour, when this Blessed Morning shall dawn and shed its Beams, and with a wondrous Lustre put an end to all the Darkness and Miseries of Mortality? It does indeed already shine in the Hearts and Hopes of those Good Men,whose Conversation is even now in Heaven: But even theirs is but a distant Prospect, and such as, while they sojourn here, presents things only in a Glass. The Citizens and Inhabitants of those Blessed Regions see it with their naked Eye, they feel and enjoy its sweetness, and are all enlightned with its Rays; while the distressed Sons of
of Necoy Pleasures affaulted b
Eve endure and groan under their Exile, and cannot but lament the bitterness of this imperfect gloomy Day, which Men on Earth call Evil. A Day but short, and, which is worse, dismal and uncomfortable. For who can worthily express the Pains, the Perplexities of Body and Soul, which are the necessary, the inseparable Incumbrances of Man's present Condition ? A Condition wherein he is polluted with so many Sins, entangled in so many Difficulties, beset with so many Misfortunes, oppress d with so many Fears, distracted with so many Cares, disturbed and diverted from his main Concern by so many Impertinencies, deluded with so many Vanities, confounded with so many Errors, wasted and worn out with so much Labour and Trouble ; assaulted by Temptations, emasculated by Pleasures, and tormented with great variety of Necessities and Wants ?
O! When will there be an end of this so complicated Misery? When may I hope to be enlarged and released from this Bondage of Sin? When shall my Thoughts and Desires center, and be for ever fixed in Thee, my God, alone? When may I hope to attain true Joy in Thee, without any allay of bodily Suffering, without any distraction of Mind ? When shall I reft in firm untroubled Peace? Peace from Accidents and Temptations withour, Peace from Guilt and Misguiding, from the Solicitations of Luft, and the Violence of Passion within ? When shall I see my Jesus Face to Face, and contemplate the Beauties of his Kingdom and Glorious Godhead? When will my dearest Saviour be my All in All, and receive me to those blissful Habitations, prepared for them that love him, and that are loved by him, before the Foundation of the World.
Behold! I am here desolate and poor, a Stranger and alone in an Enemy's Country; where Wars rage and never cease, and terrible Diftreffes come thick