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ment's reflection told me that the donation so given was either intended as a personal compliment to myself, or would have been granted with equal readiness to the Roman Catholic priest, or the Independent preacher. It is easier to give than to refuse; and the spurious liberalism of the day has (among all its other hundred falsehoods) a false charity, which takes pride in making "no distinctions," in contributing to the Church one hour, and to the meeting-house the next. This, probably, was the secret of Mark's ready gift; for the general bearing of his conversation, coupled with what I had heard from Mildred Clifford (to say nothing of Mrs. Badger's ominous anecdotes), convinced me that if he still called himself a Churchman, his principles must be exceedingly lax. best, he could be only halting between two opinions. He was not one who was "fully persuaded in his own mind;"4 but must needs be wavering and vacillating between extremes-the balance now preponderating in favour of one set of notions, now in favour of another.

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I resolved, therefore, if possible to probe him; so after thanking him cordially for his munificent donation (for munificent it was, as compared with what many richer men than my friend would have contributed-men, I mean, who give their pitiful units where they ought to give tens, and hundreds where they ought to offer thousands,) and acknowledging his kindness in making me the bearer of it, I added, + Rom. xiv. 5.

"And now do tell me what you meant when you said, a short time ago, that you were no particular friend of the Church. I hold in my hand a very sufficient evidence to the contrary; do I not? and a proof that the report was false, that you had declined to contribute to the church at Mirkley?"

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The colour rushed into Mark's cheeks as I put this question; he seemed quite confused, and as if he was hesitating how to answer me. Come," thought I, "this argues well; he is, at least, not firmly fixed in his erroneous opinions."

After a short pause he said," It is quite true, I did refuse Mr. Harvey; and, perhaps, I have been somewhat inconsistent in yielding to your solicitation : but you put the matter in a new light, and-andin short," added he, affectionately, "I was unwilling to refuse you any thing."

"But why should you, who have been born and bred a Churchman, and with ample means at your disposal, have had a moment's hesitation on the subject?"

"Because, Mr. Warlingham, my opinion with respect to the Church has (as I have already hinted) undergone a great change of late."

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Oh," replied he, "it would be an interminable discussion, and a useless one, for I have made up my mind. And yet it is almost due to you, who have known me so long, and who have ever shewn such

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kind interest about me, that you should be made acquainted with the real state of mind. It is growing late now; but if you will dine and sleep here to-night, you will at least save me from a solitary dinner on New-Year's day, and we shall have plenty of leisure in the evening for conversation."

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Self-Confidence.

Why should I e'er forsake thy dwelling, Blest
Of God; or whither from Thy shelter move?
Whate'er vouchsafement waits us from above,
To cheer, sustain, enlighten, is possest
By Thee, and Thou to Thine distributest:
And sure I think, if tempted once to rove

From Thee, my foot would find, like Noah's dove,
O'er the wide waters refuge none, nor rest.
Grace is within thy precincts, Holy Ark;

Grace and salvation! And though gathering gloom Now and again with signs of presage dark

O'erhang Thee, mercy's beams the screen illume; And faith on blackest clouds may brightest mark God's bow, the pledge of blessings yet to come!

BISHOP MANT.

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