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had once the happiness to call him theirs. To them wants before our Father's throne, and entreat bin the recollection of whose happy hours devoted to so- lo fill you with all holy boldness and Christian coucial or sacred intercourse with their departed friend, rage ; whilst at the same time I would must earnmust yield a soothing, though a melancholy plea- estly entreat you to consider the foolishness of your sure. Nor is the reflection less honorable to his me- fears: the little need we have to seek to please our mory, than it is consolatory to their minds. In the fellow-creatures, or to dread them, and above all midst of the unbounded popularity which he en- the constant inspection of Him who said, whosoeret joyed--surrounded by new and splendid connections shall confess me before men, him shall the Son of Man --the admiration of listening crowds, each eager also confess before his holy angels

. But I am persuadto express his approbation-all ambitious of his ed that you are not ashamed of Jesus; yet there friendship—he ever thought with the warmest affec- is great need for us all to ask ourselves repeatedly, tion upon those whom he had left in that obscurity am I fully on the Lord's side ?' because this very from which he had himself emerged. Gladly did examination itself produces the best effects, as it he seize the opportunity, when it occurred, of re- prompts us to give evidence before others of the retiring from the public eye to taste again the tranquil ality of our hope, and it brings us near to God, who pleasures of his home, and enjoy the interchange can make us strong in the grace that is in Christ of all those sacred and delightful feelings which Jesus, and faithful even unto death. Your letters strengthen and endear the ties and obligations of always affect me; your company you know delights social or domestic life. He was not unduly elated me; and what shall I say of your attachment to me, by his popularity. In his new associations he did but that it meets return. I am often indeed induced not forget his kindred and his father's house. His to believe that you are too careful of me, and too family did not sink in his regard, in proportion as much concerned about me. Expressions of gratihe rose to eminence. The voice of universal tude on my part from my mouth or pen I know yoa praise did not drown the milder whispers of pa- do not want, therefore I shall not trouble you with ternal love. But in a heart whose best affections them. My mind is perfectly at ease about the prewere devoted to the noblest objects, and to which sent or future laws of the house, as well as about new scenes of exertion were perpetually unfolding, any situation after I have filled it. O that I may be the family at Hertford-held an honorable and dis- stayed on God! I often think what a pity it will be, tinguished place. The most extensive public en- if from our friendship there should arise no good gagements, are not incompatible with the retired effect; however, here I am wrong, because I am duties of private life--and the cares and responsi- myself a witness that good effects have arisen to me ; bilities of the most laborious ministry may be sus- but I long that to us there may be opened fresh tained and discharged, without absorbing those af- sources of comfort and joy in God, and that we fectionate regards so justly claimed by parental may then be made abundant blessings to each other. kindness and fraternal love. 'Tis true, that as a I am going to preach next Sabbath at Roydon, a Christian, and in his official capacity, every believer village near Hertford, where I have reason to hope in Jesus is to the faithful minister a father-a mo- God has owned and blessed my unworthy laburs ther-a sister-and a brother. But as a man the re- before. May he do so again. Perhaps I may go lations of life exist for him-and the feelings of to Hertford to-morrow afternoon, as it was the place humanity must be common to him too. A heart of my nativity, and is now the residence of my dear from which these ties are rudely severed-is but father, my sisters, brother, and mother-in-law. I ill adapted to that soothing influence by which the could say much more, (though in the same feeble office of the ministry becomes a source of comfort and desultory style) but you perceive my paper is to the wretched ;-and a man whose bosom is a full. I cannot expect to see you at all till Tuesday. stranger to the tender sympathies of human life- The coach comes in town on Monday evening, alike insensible to joy or sorrow—may with propri- about half past six. If I ean, I will walk then to ety administer the cold rites of a Stoical philoso- Fleet-street. phy—but must ever be a living contrast to the reli Adieu, my dear friend, gion of Jesus-a system whose characteristic spirit

" THOMAS SPENCER." is that of the purest and tenderest philanthropy. From this period to that of his first visit to Liver

Before his departure for Roydon, the following pool, I am not in possession of any remarkable ocletter was addressed by Mr. Spencer to his friend. currences in Mr. Spencer's history. At any rate, I The observations at the beginning upon Christian am aware of none which tend to illustrate any parboldness are judicious—and, though ignorant of the ticular feature of his character, or of such a nature particular circumstances which might have called as to warrant their publication to the world. But them forth, cannot fail to prove interesting and in- there yet remain many interesting letters to his structive.

friend, Mr. Haddon, which will tènd very much to XVIII.

supply the want of a connected narrative-and that friend who during this period, enjoyed the most in

timate acquaintance with him--and obtained a most Thursday evening, September 14, 1809.

accurate knowledge of his character, has furnished

me with a series of anecdotes and observations, “MY DEAR FRIEND-I know you wish me to which will make the reader familiar with the man, write you a great deal; but I must plead the old ex- and most strikingly exhibit the holy, humble, and cuse-want of time; for I find thai instead fervent bias of his mind. For the present I shail of calling to-morrow morning, must have this di- content myself with making a selection from these rectly, and I have but this minute left the chapel. letters, with such occasional remarks as may be You tell me your mind recoils from public duty; necessary to illustrate their subjects or occasions; however plain and clear,' and you need not be told whilst the characteristic sketches above alluded to, that this is a pity; and in this respect you do not will occupy some of the succeeding pages. display that Christian boldness which is after all consistent with genuine humility-which the apos

XIX. tles displayed and enforced-which the Bible every where recommends--and which is well calculated to evidence our decided attachment to Jesus and his

Hoxton, Oct. 12, 1809. cause. It shall be my part, however, not to re “MY DEAR FRIEND-With pleasure it is that proach you for the want of it, but to carry your I inform you, that I am appointed for Vauxhall.

TO MR, JOHN HADDON.

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TO MR. JOHN HADDON.

I feel pleasure, because this assignation gives us is want of time and multiplicity of engagemenisme another opportunity of enjoying each other's society. for in the academy my time is not my own. I have I have not yet wriiten to those friends in the coun- just been writing a long letter to Mrs. Wtry, but intend doing it to-morrow. May the young staring my views, wishes and hopes, for the welfare lady die in such a peaceful and happy state of mind, of her amiable and beloved daughter. May she be as shall, instead of suffering the survivors to sorrow resigned to the Divine will, and ready when the as those who have no hope, rather give them to say heavenly bridegroom cometh! From all that I can -Behold how he loved her! I mentioned the circum- learn, I have no doubt of her interest in the afstance to Mr. W. at the same time stating the wish fections of that same Jesus who is now, I trust, all of the Roydon people that I might supply them on your salvation and all your desire. When I recul.. Sabbath day. He told me it could not be complied lect that she, a seal lo my ministry, is apparently with, assigning as a reason, that I was given out at going to join the heavenly musicians in singing that Vauxhall. As the affair now stards, I am quite song which no man can learn but the redeemed, it satisfied, because I wish to resolve all my appoint is impossible to express my feelings. I am very dements into the will of the Head of the Church.— sirous to hear from her own lips an account of the Where he appoints, I'll go.' Of all evils, I pray way in which the Lord met with her, and a stateto be particularly delivered from leaning to my own ment of the sensations of her mind in prospect of understanding, and indulging my own wayward the last conflict. I wished to come down to see her will. May obstinacy never characterize me. May -- I asked permission. This could not be granted grace always be given me to suppress it when it me, because I was given out last Sabbath day at the rises. To these requests I know, that from your place to which I am going. But I have the happiin most soul you say Amen. One of our fellow stu- ness of informing you, that the next Lord's day I dents has just delivered us a good sermon from, shall preach at Roydon, and so shall have an op'The righteous hath hope in his death. I enjoyed his portunity of going to Thundridge Bury Farm. I sermon much more than I generally do those which hope that our covenant God is leading you in a plain are delivered to us on a Thursday evening. This paih, and teaching you more of the corruption of was so experimental-so scriptural—so pious, that your own heart and the love of Christ, by his holy it found its way to my heart. May you and I, when- Spirit. All I can recommend you to do is, to be ever we shall come to die, have a lively, a sure, and much engaged in secret prayer to him. Oh! aim a certain hope of reigning in life by Jesus Christ. to get near to him in holy communion, then you Whilst so many are called away around us, surely will find a heaven begun below. You will have we should recollect the uncertainty of our own con- Christ for your constant companion, and you will tinuance upon earth; and as death is still potent, obtain the desire of your heart. I view this as the still inexorable, and still delights to surprise, let ii time of your first love. May the zealous afiection be our chief concern to have an interest in the af- for Christ which I hope you now discover, increase fections of the heart of that Saviour, who shall yet more and more. Live by faith upon the Son ot destroy this last enerny, and give to his followers a God, who loved you, and gave himself for you. crown of glory changeless as his own. On him Commit your soul into his hands, and the souls of may we now both live by faith, that so when we all the members of your family. It is my earnest have served our generation according to his will, prayer, that you may grow in grace, and in the we may fall asleep in his arms.

knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ; "Adieu! Your's affectionately,

that so I may have to rejoice that you received the

“THOMAS SPENCER." gospel when delivered by me, as in deed and in The young lady to whom he refers in this letter, truth the word of God and not of man. As for your appears to have been one of the seals of his early request about a settlement for me at Roydon, I should ministry, and then at the point of death. One of recommend you not to expect it. I am always happy the letters written by him on that occasion, I am to come amongst you as an occasional supply, but I able to lay before the reader.

must venture no further. I have a variety of rea.

sons for not considering it my duty to settle with XX.

any congregation as yet, or even to think of it, and

I have thus far not engaged to do so at Roydon. “DEAR MADAM-Both your letters were safely and but actually to eradicate the thought. Wishing you

Therefore I must request you not merely to check, joyfully received by me. I say joyfully, because they show that God is putting honor upon my feeble your respected partner-and all your family, the and unworthy labors, and making use of them for

best of blessings, I remain

“Your's sincerely, your spiritual welfare-a circumstance that gives

"THOMAS SPENCER." me more real pleasure than any other circumstance possibly could. You are much mistaken in sup- studies to have cherished the idea of an immediate

Had he then been sufficiently advanced in his posing that I neglected to write to you, because you settlement--and had he been left to the free, un. had in your letters said any thing improper; nothing biassed expression of his feelings—there is no spot could be more opposite to my ideas. Had this been on which he would have fixed as the scene of his the case, I should have felt it my duty to have set stated and pastoral labors, in preference to a village you right : but I can tell you what I can tell my God, so tranquil and retired as Rovdon. He did not vawhen I say that I never heard or read an account lue popularity, except as it afforded

him an opporof a young convert which appeared more satisfac- tunity of doing good. No one ever was more averse tory, or filled me with more delight, than that which to pomp or to parade. He loved simplicity in all its you give me of yourself. I say this not to puff you forms. It was indeed a characteristic feature of up with spiritual pride, but to make you more thank- himself; and had no the prospect of more extensive fúl that you have obtained mercy, and to assure you usefulness allured him to a wider and more public that your suspicions of any dissatisfaction on my part are altogether groundless. Rather would I ex sphere, his passion for retirement would have guided (well may I wonder) by his blessing upon my weak which seeined declining, beneath the pressure of so claim, 'what halh God wrought!

and wrought too him in his selection of a residence for life.

Talking with him on the subject of his health, exertions. Oh! let' the glory be ascribed to Him much exertion, his friend said—“Do you wish to who gives testimony to the word of his grace. The be carly !aid aside

or do you desire a premature excuse I have to plead for not writing to you before, grave žu "Oh no," said he's you know iy wishes

Nambor 8

TO MRS.

TO MR. JOHN HADDON.

to have a ineeting in the country, surrounded by gether inappropriate to the subject of the following Trees--occasionally to see the shadows of the leaves letter. quivering on the walls, in the reflection of the set

XXI. ting sun. A burial ground near, in which I and my people can together lie!* To live a long, honorable, and useful life, bringing many souls to the

Hoxton college, Oct. 27, 1809. Saviour! This is the summit of my wishes." Though it was denied him to enjoy the first, the

“MY DEAR FRIEND— The expressions of affection last object of his desire, and by far the most impor- your last letter, all your letters, and the whole strain tant and dearest to his heari, he did possess; for of your conduct towards me evince, greatly affec: never was so short a ministry honored by the 'con- me, and you will find my feelings upon the subject version of so many souls. Every week in Liver- in Prov. xxvii. 19. Sanctified friendship appears pool discloses some fresh instances of its success. It is what the Saviour recommended by his own

to me to be one of the best sweets in the cup of life. and one and another is perpetually rising up to say

-"By the grace of God I am what I am, but it was example, and what the best of men have experi. the ministry of Spencer that led me first a humble enced beneficial in every age. May this kind of suppliant to the throne of mercy.”

friendship be exemplified in us, and may we mutuThe situation of young ministers is peculiarly ally share in the affections of the heart of Him, delicate and dangerous. The eyes not only of the who," having loved his own which were in the world, religious public, but also of the world are fixed on lased them unto the end!"). To his will in all things them. And it is to be deplored, that where they

we must bow, and in his dispensations, howerer have a right to expect the greatest kindness, they contrary to our inclination, acquiesce; but“ not my often meet with an undue severity; and those who will but thine be done,is language which requires a ought to be the first to throw the mantle of love over large degree of grace to use in all cases, and from their defects, are not unfrequently the most forward the bottom of our hearts. and exulting in their exposure. To an unhappy and

Many eyes are indeed upon me, and much do I inordinate love of scandal, many a fair and unble fear that they will see something in me ere long that mished reputation bas fallen the victim. The scat

will take them from me. Your warnings are faithtered wrecks by which they are surrounded, should ful, but my heart is still deceitful, and Saian may, inspire succeeding voyagers with caution. There for any thing I know, be about to sift me as wheat. is a cheerfulness, compa ible with the deepest seri- You are not ignorant of his devices. Oh! then, ousness--the most fervent riety; and ihere is a le- pray for me, that my faith fail not, so that, instead vily, in which the dignity of the minister and the of the number of those who behold me, turning sale'i y ci the Christian, inav alike be lost. Where away from me with disgust and aversion, iher mar this is witnessed, wha ever clajin the individual rather glorify God in me, and take knuwledge of wa" Lave upon the generosity and lenity of the spec. affords me some degree of encouragement, is that

me that I have been with Jesus. The thought tha turer la nene ni pon their justice--they have a Jehovah knotre h my sa:h, and that he is able to ritü non--ind wever temav deprecate E: Se Ert' ----Lore can deur them is exercise. make me stand, rea o remove the suspicions of

i eitis perians ita tiden is are most ex- those who fear and rrait to see.' Bit really I can09:10.176 wri Fa igned and wased by the close no help thinking iha i here are come seople in the ab.ca... aia in'ense thought of many studious world who seem as if they wished for something to teens, bry enter, as they imagine, the circle of hinder one's usefulness; and who by their 100 sig. friendship, and instantly relax. Those who only nificant expressions on the subject, lead me to s'ipsee the effect, and are unacquainted with its cause, pose that they would rejoice in such a circumstance, basiily form an unfavorable opinion of their cha' and say, 'Oh! so would we have it.' And why? racer, and cruelly propaga:e the opinion they have Because then their clever prophecies would be fulrashly formerit These observations are not allo- filled, and we should for the future put such conti

dence in their forebodings as to view them as cer. May I be indulged in another extract from the rain omens of ill events. I do hope, however, that poems of Kirke White ? . It was a passage which God will in great mercy either keep me from the Spencer ofien read with peculiar emphasis, and seems

snares that lie in my way, or take me to himself. a melancholy comment on his own ideas.

“I have to-day written to the Kidderminster peo

ple, referring them to the Doctor, or Mr. Wilson. " Beneath this yew, I would be sepulchred. I will try and be with you to-morrow by 12 o'clock It is a lovely spot! The sultry sun,

Do not be disappointed if I should not be able. From his meridinn height, endeavors vainly

“I remain yours affectionately, To pierce the shadowy foliage;"

“Thomas SPENCER." "Tis a nook

On Sunday, the 5th of November, he was appointMost pleasant."

ed to preach at Cambridge, in the pulpit lately oc

cupied by the Rev. Robert Hall, A. M. a name dear " Yet may not undistinguish'd be my grave : to genius, as to religion. The day following, he

Bnt there at eve may soine congenial soul
Duly resort, and shed a pious tear,

one of onr academies had been spending some days The good man's benison-no more I ask. with a pious and intelligent gentleman in the conntry, And oh! (if heavenly beings may look down, who was in the habit of having the servants of Christ From where, with Cherubim inspir'd, they sit, beneath his hospitable roof. On his departure, the Upon this line diin discover'd spot,

gentleman accompanied his gnest some miles on his The earth,) then will I cast a glance belowo road, and in the course of conversation said I canOn him who thus my ashes shall embalm.” not forbear expressing to you, sir, the satisfaction

which I have enjoyed in your society. I must confess "Wishing he may not long be doom'd to pine that I have been too often grieved by the levity of sta

In this low-thoughted world of darkling wo; dents, whom yet I have highly valned; but whilst you But that, ere loug, he reach his kindred skies." have displayed a cheerfulness which has enlivened our

circle, you have preserved a uniform respect to your + I remember a case in point upon this subject-the sacred office, which has secured the esteem and admi mention of which may not be useless. A student from ! ration of us all."

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spent in viewing the University. In a letter dated | cordially adore Him who has been appointed w the 3d, he says, “ last night my surprise was excited give light to them who sit in darkness, and to guide by seeing that I am not appointed on the list for any our feet into the way of peace. May you and lever place in town, but for Cambridge. I am to stay enjoy the presence of Jesus, our best friend; share Monday over at Cambridge, to look at the colleges, his tender sympathy; bis kind reproofs; his ex &c. I shall think much of Kirke White;" and cellent counsels. "May he be our God for ever and aware of the respectability, both in wealth and talent, ever, and our guide even unto death. Then we of the congregation he was called to address, he need fear no evil

. If sensible that he is with us, we adds, “ the Lord make me prudent and faithful; may pass through midnight glooms, and experience may it appear that he has some good end to answer a season of great darkness, and yet look forward 10 by conducting me thither."

a future time, when with pleasure we shall sing, He was exceedingly attached to the poetry of The Lord is my light, of whom shall I be afraid. Henry Kirke White. He could repeat a great part Oh! that I may be enabled to commit your soul and of it, and frequently quoted it with great emphasis my own into the hands of Jesus as unio a faithtui and feeling. *** And yet,” said he in conversation Creator. I can now add no more, than to say thal with the friend to whom these letters are addressed, I remain affectionately yours, “there is a thirst for fame sometimes discovered,

6. THOMAS SPENCER." which pains me.

The next letter furnishes another proof of his hu* Fisty years hence, and who will hear of Henry.'

mility and diffidence. It was written the day before Well, suppose nobody does, and what then? If

it became his turn to preach again in the chapel at Henry has served his day and generation, and is Hoxton, the Thursday evening lecture, which the gone to glory, neither the church nor he will be tutors usually attend. losers; and the hearing of Henry will be too small a

XXIII. consideration to be brought into the account." Public as Spencer's life had now become, and ex

TO MR. HADDON. posed as he was to the influence of every unholy

December 6, 1809. passion which popularity might awaken, he yet maintained a close and holy walk with God. He

"MY DEAR FRIEND-I am sensible that Mr. S.'s courted solitude, and for the best of purposes. Or politeness merits' much of us, and if I must name him it may be truly said, ' his fellowship was with the some day for us to meet there, it must be Monday Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. The holy I am sorry you have been so busy about so worth

next. This we will speak of to-morrow evening. and the heavenly tone his mind received in those retired hours, gave a peculiar unction to his minis- less an object as myself. I need not say, pray espetry; and the knowledge which by deep communion cially for me, that a divine blessing may attend me with his own heart, and constani intercourse with to-morrow evening in preaching before ihose whom God, he had obtained, rendered his preaching re- you know I too much dread as hearers

. 'The Lord markably profitable to believers, and gave him a grant unto his servant, that with all boldness he may skill in administering instructions adapied to all the speak his word.' I trust your desire and expectavarieties of their experience. Of this the following gratified. My mind is rather more composed

tion of obtaining good on Friday evening will be is a pleasing specimen.

than it has ever been before, when I have had to XXII.

preach here on the Thursday evening. How it will be when the time comes, I know not. Many

eyes are upon me, and different, very different are November 9, 1809.

the feelings with which my brethren hear me. But

if the Head of the Church gives each of them a “MY DEAR FRIEND-Be assured that I, as well as blessing, they will, I hope, be satisfied. yourself, have walked in darkness, and complained

“Your's affectionately, that there was no light. Fluctuations in experience are, I am sure, my lot, whilst my only consolation

" THOMAS SPENCER." in such circumstances still remain—'tis the un It is indeed m'ich to be regretted, that any feel. changeableness of Christ. Oh! what is so calculat- ings but those of mutual affection, forbearance and ed to reconcile our minds to the way our Father candor, should be cherished in the hearts of brecalls us to travel, as the recollection, that whilst thren-and such surely are the students in the same we are found in it, Jesus is the same, and that to the academy. But in the present imperfect state of our end of the journey; and in every trying circum- nature, it must be expected, that superior excellence, stance he is a present help. In darkness he will while it is the object of universal admiration abroad, enable us to trust in the Lord, and to stay ourselves will, in too many instances, be exposed to the maupon our God; yea he will cheer our desponding lignant

glance of envy and of jealousy at home.souls with visitation sweet. Seasons in which we And when the scourge of criticism is supplied wi:h experience darkness of mind, and depression of soul, knots by these, who but must expect to smart beare necessary : they form the analogy between us neath its strokes. It is certainly to the honor of the and those who through tribulation are gone to hea- institution to which Mr. Spencer belonged, that its ven: they render us fit subjects for the illuminating members for the most part knew, admired, and conand refreshing grace of Christ; they add a higher fessed his worth :—and if there were any exceptions relish to the renewed enjoyment of ihe light and li-1-let them remain in that oblivion in which is their berty of the gospel; and they serve to prepare us best security. But the solemn admonition of his for that world where the Lord shall be our ever- early death, should tend to check the bitter exercise lasting life, and our God our glory.

of that unhallowed sarcasm by which the rise of ex“Reflecting upon deliverance from such times of depression should teach us to sav— Return unto thy * “Those who admire and cherish rising talent, can rest, O my soul, for the Lord hath dealt bountifully have no bitter reflections when they contemplate the with thee! It should lead us to anticipate future fa- grave of Spencer. They hailed his entrance into pubvors, and rejoice that he that hath delivered us, can lic life, and strengthened his hands by their prayers and will deliver; and since the day has dawned, and their approbation. Those who could envy him, and the shadows have fled away, we should most | and auch I know there were, must be covered with

TO MR. JOHN HADDON.

TO MR. JOHN HADDON.

TO MR. HADDON.

traordinary usefulness or genius is too frequently the chamber of sickness, the exercises of the pulpit assailed. 'In academies of religion and literature, will be furnished with materials of the highest orwhere the avowed object of every student is, not his der; and the beds of the diseased will be attended individual advancement, but the glory of God, a with a sympathy, which experience of similar af. spirit of detraction and envy ought to be unknown. fiction only can excite. The most devoted and useful, should be inost es The greater part of the Christmas vacation Mr. teemed. Every private interest should be lost in Spencer spent at Brighton, and on the first day the general welfare of the church of Christ. One of the year 1810, he preached at the Rev. Mr. may behold, indeed, with less concern, the strokes Styles' chapel, 10 young people, from 2 Chron. xxxiv. of satire when they fall upon the arrogant, the pre- 27, 28. “Because thine heart was tender, and thou sumptuous and the vain :-but when talents are at- didst humble thyself before God, when thou heardst tended by humility--when popularity is connected his words against this place, and against the inhabiwith diffidence-and eminent piety is mingled with tants thereof, and humbledst thyself before me, and extraordinary displays of genius—to such an object didst rend thy clothes and weep before me: I hare the severity of sarcasm is improperly directed, and even heard thee also, sa;h the Lord. Behold I will every well regulated mind must view its exercise gather thee to thy fathers, and thou shalt be gawith pain.

thered to thy grave in peace. Neither shall thine About this time his health again declined. A se- eyes see all ihe evil that I will bring upon this place, vere cold for some days deprived him of his voice, and upon the inhabitants of the same.” and he was compelled to rest one Sabbath day from The good seed which he was the instrument of his public work. What were his feelings in pros- scattering in Brighton, very rapidly sprang up: In pect of that Sabbath, this letter will declare. a letter to his father, written immediately on his re

turn from thence, and dated Jan. 12th, 1810, he XXIV.

says, 'a young person who heard me at Mr. Styles' last year, was called by divine grace under my in

strumentality, and died before I went this iime,

December 6, 1809. bearing an honorable testimony to the religion of “ MY DEAR FRIEND—It appears that your suspi

Jesus, and to her interes: in it. Oh! what hath God cions that I should preach three times to-morrow,

wrought !" will not, cannot be realized, for Mr. Western, as solicit a favor of his friend in London, the perform

During his stay at Brighton, he had occasion to well as ihose around me are agreed, that I must not go to Hertford at all, judging it dangerous for me

ance of which was acknowledged in the following

letter. to go out, much more so to preach. Yesterday I passed a miserable day. The thought of the pain

XXV. of mind the lelier I sent home would occasion to my friends, hurt me much, and I was much worse than I had been before, as my lungs and ibroai felt more inflamed. To-day I think I am better, but

Brighton, January 1, 1810. still very far from well. I can scarcely bear the “ MY DEAR FRIEND—However you may smile at prospeci of a silent Sabbath. I think I shall be the idea of my writing you a letter of thanks, 'I quite out of my element to-morrow. Oh! that I did assure you I ihink you have a claim upon it, for but more firmly believe, that he who is my Saviour you have done for me what I should have liked tew does a! things well, and that he who sustains the others to have done; but suffice it to say, it came dread characier of Judge of all the earth, must do sate to hand. Last Thursday evening I preached right. If I am able, I shall hear Mr. Hordle in the on Luke xxiv. 32. Yesterday morning at the Counmorning. I have no voice yet. I hope it is not ir- tess', on Eph. ii. 14. In the evening at Mr. Styles'. retrievably lost. I need not say, that if you can call it being the close of the year, on Exodus xxiii

. 20. this evening, it will give me unspeakable pleasure. To-night I shall only preach, as one minister will “ Yours affectionately,

commence and another close with prayer. It is " THOMAS SPENCER." said that I shall preach at the chapel on Thursday

evening. You ask me, where I shall be next SabReflecting on this temporary indisposition in a bath. Many advise me to remain at Brighton ; but letter to his father, he says—"I have reason to hope it is my present intention to return home on the that the measure of aifliction with which our heaven. Friday, though I really feel myself in a difficulty ly Father thought nt to visit me, has been made a about it. I hope I have, since I have been at this blessing to my soul. It gave me time for reflection place, enjoyed the divine blessing-those with and close self-examination. It gave a new zest to whom I associate are the excellent of the earthmy feelings, and when it was removed, I hope I was with no others have I any occasion to be at all coninspired with fresh ardor to live for the glory of nected. In this respect I am like your good friend God."

Mr. H. of Westminster. We certainly do not in Amid the constant bustle of a public life, the re- general sufficiently estimate the worth of the socitirement which temporary indisposition affords, ety of those who discover the mind that was in must be most beneficial to a pious mind. Then it Christ;-great is the benefit we may derive from can relax into a calm and intimate communion with their company. Oh! let those of us who fear the itself. It can quietly indulge in such a review of Lord speak often with one another; one may thus the past—and such an anticipation of the future, as come at each other's follies, and stimulate each will tend not a little, under the sanctifying influ- other to the performance of that good, acceptable, ence of the Holy Spirit, to curb its impetuosity-- and perfect will of God. I think my cold is getting correct its levity--and regulate its principles. From better. After I had preached last night, a valuable

young Scotch clergyman who was there, wished 1 merited shame, when they behold him so early stript might live to preach many such sermons-what of those honors, talents, advantages, and successes. could I say, but all the days of my appointre time which exposed him to their jealousy and malignity. If will I wait till my change comc. It is a great sathese unworthy men were before me, I wonld 'speak tisfaction to know, that we are training up for heaven daggers to them, but nse none!'”-See Styles' Funeral and ripening apace for the vision of God.' Pray Sermon for the Red. T. Spencer.

for me, that this perseverance may be given me.

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