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while he gave glory to his Saviour, and said, “I am waiting his will : all I want is a full, constant application of his merits." He then asked to have the hymn read,

“ Now I have found the ground wherein,” &c. ;

and, when it was ended, he said, “Ah! that contains the only ground of a sinner's hope; consistent with all the perfections of Deity." During the whole day he was kept in this blessed state. Although struggling in the protracted pains of dying, he was indeed more than conqueror tlırough Christ. The mortal agony was indeed unusually severe; but even this was surpassed by the triumphant power of divine grace and love. About three in the afternoon, thinking he was alone in the room, (as one of his kind nurses had thrown herself on the couch, for a little rest,) in the most solemn and deliberate manner he said, “ Now, my God, I dedicate my all to thee,-my spirit, my soul, and my body." Ile then prayed, with great fervour, that God would bless his family when he was taken from them. Ilis nurse, awaking, was so affected by his language, that she fell on her knees. The movement called his attention to her; and he immediately began to pray for her and her children. Several friends saw him after this, to whom he spoke with great faithfulness and affection, exhorting them to persevere in welldoing to the end, and expressing himself as just waiting for the summons to remove to his heavenly mansion. In the evening he appeared much exhausted; but the Doctor said, his pulse was better than in the morning: however, this night proved a very distressing one ; but the - everlasting arms were his support.

Monday, 16th, he said, " Ilad we been more faithful, how much more advanced in purity and glory we might have been! Well, we have this only hope,

I the chief of sinners am,

But Jesus died for me.'

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O the wisdom shown in the whole economy of grace! Who but thyself, O Lord, could have devised such a plan? Lord Jesus, receive our praises ! Who is a God like unto thee, pardoning iniquity, transgression, and sin?” In the evening he looked up to heaven, and, with animation, said, “A moment's burst in the new, eternal song, will more than compensate for all our sufferings below. "Unto Him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood, and hath made us Kings and Priests unto God and his father, to Him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.'

Tuesday, 17th.-In the course of the day he said, “ All the expressions the Holy Ghost uses, to describe the bliss of heaven, seem very appropriate. “In thy presence is fulness of joy, at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore. Praise the Lord! Praise his holy name! Glory to God and the Lamb! Lovely, lovely, precious Lamb! Glory

for ever!” He smiled, and, looking upwards, said, “ Precious Lamb! My passage is clear. My salvation is sure.

I am

* Hard toiling to make the blest shore.'

But when the pains come on, a ray of glory comes down, and fills my soul.

"Jesus comes with my distress,

And agony is heaven.' Glory be to God!

'I 'll praise Him while he lends me breath!”

Some one in the room said something about the “dark valley." He quickly replied, “ But there is light at the end of it.”

During the 18th and 19th he continued in nearly the same condition, both of body and mind. His pains were great. Sometimes there were paroxysms of violent suffering, and these were succeeded by faintness and exhaustion ; but his mind was stayed upon God, and God kept him in perfect peace. The rapturous joy that he so often experienced, appeared abundantly to counteract the severe and lengthened conflict with the last enemy, and they were followed by no painful depression. When triumphant praise would have been too much for his exhausted state, he sank into a delightful repose in the mercy of God his Saviour. The passage through the valley and shadow of death appeared to be, in his case, more than ordinarily protracted ; but that the people of God may suffer no disturbance from the apprehension of such an occurrence as to themselves, it should be noticed that more than ordinary were the consolations which were vouchsafed to him. This period of lingering suffering may truly be said to have been the happiest period of his life. Prayer, praise, exhortations to earnestness, fidelity, and perseverance, addressed to those who visited him, occupied his waking hours. He sometimes prayed very earnestly for the unconverted, seeming to be almost in an agony on their account. “O, I see them, I see them,” he once exclaimed, "going, pressing, into the pit of destruction !"

Friday, 20th, he said, “ Now, Lord, lettest thou thy servant depart in peace; for mine eyes have seen thy salvation.” “ For me to live is Christ, to die is gain." In the afternoon he requested that the servant Inight be called up stairs; and, when all in the room had surrounded his bed, he gave out,

« Praise God, from whom all blessings flow;"

and attempted to sing. It was thought that he would request some one who was present to pray; but when the doxology was concluded, he shut his eyes, joined his hands, praised God for all the blessings he had conferred upon us and our families, acknowledged our sins and unfaithfulness to grace, implored forgiveness, and asked blessings for

us and all belonging to us. He then solemnly pronounced the benediction. In the course of the night I said, “ You are very faint." He replied, “I long, I do indeed long, to depart, and be with my Lord. I come to thee, thou precious Lamb of God !”

In the course of Saturday, 21st, though reduced to extreme weakness, he cried,

“ Mercy's full power I then shall prove,

Loved with an everlasting love."

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On Sunday, 22d, he said, “I am going to heaven. My way is clear'; but it is a serious thing to die. Nothing but the grace of God will do."

On the 23d, as I stood by him, looking at me, he said, “Now, I believe, I shall soon overcome ;” and, with a smile, and motion of his head, added, “He is ordering an embassy for me." Soon after, he exclaimed, “ The wonders Jesus does are above all wonders. O heaven! that is the world of wonders. I have had a world of pain; but there is the world of wonders! O the glory, the glory!”

Tuesday, 24th, he said, “I am waiting the coming of my Lord without fear. Christ is in me, the hope of glory. The everlasting God, the Prince of peace! Come, Lord Jesus, come, come, come! I shall soon partake of the inheritance of the saints in light.'”

On the 25th, for a short time, the shadow of a cloud fell upon his spirit. He said to me, “ Pray for me: I have perplexities and conflicts." I answered, “ Did you expect nothing of the kind ? Have we not sung, sometimes,

• Close by the gates of death and hell,

I urge my way to heaven?'

Satan is permitted to make another effort. But the woman's conquering Seed will beat down Satan under your feet.

Our conflicts here shall soon be past,
And you and I ascend at last,

Triumphant with our Head.'”

He smiled, fell back upon the merciful promise of God, and appeared much engaged in prayer. God gave him a glorious victory.

Thursday, 26th, in the early part of the day he exclaimed, “O the wonders of redeeming love! But the greatest wonder of all is, that I have an interest in it." He now laboured under great faintness, which continued for some hours; indeed, he appeared to sink very fast. He lay for some time as though insensible. I and a friend sat near, watching him ; when, all at once, he opened his eyes, threw up his dying arm, and waved it, crying, "Halle, halle glory, glory, halle, halle—;" then waved both arms. Soon after he said, “I shall see the best, the holiest,-yes, the men of God of every age, of

every clime.” After a pause, he added, “I will magnify the Lord for ever and ever.

If all the world my Jesus knew,

Then all the world would love him too.'” In a few minutes he again raised his right arm, pointed to the top of the bed, and cried out, “ Look, look, look, look," with such strength, as moved his whole body, now reduced to infant weakness.

The closing scene was now evidently drawing near. Though so strong, that the struggle with the last enemy had been thus painfully protracted, the mortal victory was nearly gained; but the triumph of the inner man was complete. On Saturday, 28th, when his daughter was wiping his hands, he looked at her, and said, “I shall soon be in my heavenly Father's house." And, some time after, though with a faltering voice, he added, "My heart—and my flesh-faileth ;-butGod is—the-strength-of my heart, -and-my-portion-for ever.”

Sunday, 29th, during the night, he said, “ Halle-, halle" several times; and, about nine in the morning, “Glory to God for ever." subjoined, “ Glory to God and the Lamb for ever.” He repeated the words after me. I believe he knew the voice ; for he said, “I-amgoing :" I replied, “ to glory :” he answered, “ to glory." These were his last words. About three in the afternoon he attempted to lift his dying hand, smiled, and his countenance was for some moments quite irradiated, as with inward joy. A few minutes after seven in the evening, without a sigh, he entered the joy of his Lord. Had not his friends been near, and looking at him, he would have escaped away without their knowledge ; so gentle was his departure at last. He died, December 29th, 1839, aged sixty-nine years.

“O may I triumph so,

When all my warfare 's past;
And, dying, find my latest foe

Under my feet at last !”

MEMOIR OF MRS. SWINDELLS,

Of Macclesfield. The truth of the general principle laid down by Solomon in that beautiful aphorism, "Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it,” was strikingly exemplified in the life of Mrs. Swindells. Her mother, who possessed a vigorous understanding, was deeply imbued with the spirit of Christian love, and devoted a considerable portion of her time and attention to the intellectual and spiritual improvement of her daughter. Believing that the best-directed efforts to expand the mind, to form the principles, and to regulate the habits of youth, must prove abortive without

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the divine blessing, she often retired to her closet, and wrestled with God, that, as she had planted and watered, he would give the increase. On these occasions her daughter Hannah would frequently walk softly to the chamber-door, and stand listening and weeping, whilst her mother addressed God audibly in behalf of herself and family; and then retire to an adjoining room, to give expression to her own strongly-excited feelings. This maternal solicitude met with the richest reward : it called forth the tenderest filial affection, and the profoundest deference to the authority of the “ first commandment with promise : Honour thy father and thy mother.”

Iler daughter had feared God from her childhood, and been accustomed to sanctify the Sabbath, and attend the public worship of God; had evinced a growing abhorrence of sin, and an increasing tenderness of conscience; had acquired such a knowledge of the word of God, such convictions of the necessity and importance of true religion, and such decision and consistency of conduct, as rendered it a pleasant as well as fitting duty to admit her to all the benefits of membership with the Wesleyan Methodists, in the thirteenth year of her age. Thus commenced a union which was strengthened by the progress of time, perpetuated for forty-five years, and only dissolved by death. Having once put her hand to the plough, neither the allurements of the world, the temptations of the devil, nor the vicissitudes of life, could induce her to look back.

Soon after she had given herself to God, and formally connected herself with Christian society, she was seized with a malignant fever, which brought her to the gates of death. During the continuance of this severe illness, she was led to a more close and searching inspection of her own heart; to feel more impressively the vows and obligations under which she had placed herself,“ to live soberly, righteously, and godly in this present evil world;" and to experience more intimate fellowship with God, and a more satisfactory evidence of her adoption into his family.

In this season of humiliation and suffering she had covenanted with God, that, should her life be spared, she would be more faithful and active in his service: and her own father seemed to have the first claim upon her sympathy and regard. Up to this time he had lived “ without God and without hope in the world,” “ in the gall of bitterness, and in the bond of iniquity ;” and this circumstance had been a source of much domestic uneasiness, and an occasion of constant grief and anxiety to her mother. Hannah pressed upon him, with diffidence and importunity, the necessity of a more strict and conscientious observance of the Lord's day, and a more regular attendance on the means of grace. She hung upon him daily, and plied him so effectually, with such arguments and motives as the holy Scriptures furnished, or the Spirit of God suggested, that he was at last subdued, and said, with tears, “ Almost thou persuadest me to be a Christian.”

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