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ished to consider my own sins, and my own I implore, in the highest act of worship, grace danger, to remember the shortness of life, and to to keep these resolutions. use the time which thy mercy grants me to thy I hope to rise to a new life this day, glory and my own salvation, for the sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
On the 17th, Mr. Chamier took me away with
him from Streatham. I left the servants a [The following Prayer was composed and used guinea for my health, and was content enough
by Doctor Johnson previous to his receiving to escape into a house where my birth-day, the Sacrament of the Lord's Supper, on Sun- not being known, could not be mentioned. I day, December 5th, 1781.]
sat up till midnight was past, and the day, of
a new year, a very awful day, began. I prayed ALMIGHTY and most merciful Father, I am
to God, who had safely brought me to the
beginning of another year, but could not pernow, as to human eyes it seems, about to commemorate, for the last time,* the death of thy fectly recollect the prayer, and supplied it. Son Jesus Christ our Saviour and Redeemer.
Such desertions of memory I have always
had. Grant, O Lord, that my whole hope and confi. dence may be in his merits, and thy mercy; en
When I rose on the 18th, I think I prayed force and accept my imperfect repentance ;
again, then walked with my friend into his make this commemoration available to the con
grounds. When I came back, after some firmation of my faith, the establishment of my
time passed in the library, finding myself ophope, and the enlargement of my charity; and
pressed by sleepiness, I retired to my chammake the death of thy Son Jesus Christ effec
ber, where, by lying down, and a short imtual to my redemption. Have mercy upon me,
perfect slumber, I was refreshed, and prayed and pardon the multitude of my offences. Bless as the night before. my friends ; have mercy upon all men. Sup- I then dined, and trilled in the parlour and port me by thy Holy Spirit, in the days of
library, and was freed from a scruple about
Horace. weakness, and at the hour of death; and receive
At last I went to bed, having first me, at my death, to everlasting happiness, for
composed a prayer. the sake of Jesus Christ. Amen.
19th, Sunday. I went to church, and attended
the service. I found at church a time to use my prayer, O Lord, have mercy
[The following Meditations and Prayers have no dates in the MS.]
ALMIGHTY God, Creator and Governor of the I did not, this week, labour my preparation so world, who sendest sickness and restorest health,
much as I have sometimes done. My mind enable me to consider, with a just sense of thy was not very quiet; and an anxious prepara- mercy, the deliverance which Thou hast lately tion makes the duty of the day formidable and granted me, and assist by thy blessing, as is best burdensome. Different methods suit differ
for me, the means which I shall use for the cure ent states of mind, body, and affairs. I rose of the disease with which I am now afflicted. this day, and prayed, then went to tea, and Increase my patience, teach me submission to afterwards composed the Prayer, which I thy will, and so rule my thoughts and direct my formed with great fluency. I went to church; actions, that I may be finally received to evercame in at the Psalm; could not hear tbe lasting happiness, through Jesus Christ our reader in the lessons, but attended the prayers Lord. Amen.
with tranquillity. To read the New Testament once a-year in
On the Study of Religion.
Receiving the Sacrament,
I profess my faith in Jesus.
ALMIGHTY God, our heavenly Father, without whose help labour jg useless, without whose light search is vain, invigorate my studies, and direct my inquiries, that I may, by due diligence and right discernment, establish myself and others in thy Holy Faith. Take not, O
• He died the 13th following.
Lord, thy Holy Spirit from me; let not evil thoughts have dominion in my mind. Let me not linger in ignorance, but enlighten and sup. port me, for the sake of Jesus Christ our Lord. Ameu.
I have committed many trespasses ; I have neglected many duties. I have done what Thou hast forbidden, and left andone what Thou hast commanded. Forgive, merciful Lord, my sins, negligences, and ignorances, and enable me, by thy Holy Spirit, to amend my life, according to thy Holy Word, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.
O LORD God, in whose hand are the wills and affections of men, kindle in my mind boly desires, and repress sinful and corrupt imaginations; enable me to love thy commandments, and to O MERCIFUL God, full of compassion, longdesire thy promises ; let me, by thy protection suffering, and of great pity, who sparest when and influence, so pass through things temporal, we deserve punishment, and in thy wrath as finally not to lose the things eternal; and thinkest upon mercy; make me earnestly to reamong the hopes and fears, the pleasures and pent, and heartily to be sorry for all my misdosorrows, the dangers and deliverances, and all ings; make the remembrance so burdensomo the changes of this life, let my heart be surely and painful, that I may flee to Thee with a fixed, by the help of thy Holy Spirit, on the troubled spirit and a contrite heart; and, O everlasting fruition of thy presence, where true merciful Lord, visit, comfort, and relieve me; joys are to be found. Grant, O Lord, these cast me not out from thy presence, and take not petitions. Forgive, O merciful Lord, what-thy Holy Spirit from me, but excite in me true ever I have done contrary to thy laws. Give repentance ; give me in this world knowledge me such a sense of my wickedness as may pro- of thy truth, and confidence in thy mercy, and duce true contrition and effectual repentance, 80 in the world to come, life everlasting, for the that when I shall be called into another state, I sake of our Lord and Saviour, thy Son Jesus may be received among the sinners to whom Christ. Amen. sorrow and reformation have obtained pardon, for Jesus Christ's sake. Amen.
Imploring Diligence. ALMIGHTY and most mercitul Father, whose clemency I now presume to implore, after a long O God, make me to remember that the night life of carelessness and wickedness, have mercy cometh when no man can work.
THE END OF PRAYERS AND MEDITATIONS.