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than. The days of your seeming itage-1 cannot help it I cannot prosperity wear to their end; your || fly from censure. I do not deserve pleasure decays in every enjoy- l the pity which a less guilty object ment. All that serenity which might claim and receivė. All I seems to light you tlic way to hapo suffer in this world cannot equal piness, is but the “unreal mocke- ) my offences, and at the awful mory" of a deluded mind-- A cloud ment of death, I. will scek no sub, of misery hangs over your head to terfuge. darken the days of remorse-When they come, as soon they must, you
Yet, Lucinda,among my friends, will be the first to pronounce, that there are some, on whose tenderyou are unfit to live, yet more un. ness and anshaken sympathy I can: fit to die.
depend. Guilty as I have been,
there are some who may rememReserve this letter for the first ber my frailies with a charitable interview you shall have with
sorrow, many a distant year afier yourself. If that interview be of lishe who has wrung their hearts, · your own seeking, it will be a shall have slept in cold carth. It friendly dissuasive--if not and you is to them and you I now address be driven by disease to seek for myself. With the world I am tone death, it will join with your bitter- iosignificant to be remembered ; cst reflections ; your end will be
their censure or charily, their pity miserable, as your life has been
or spleen, are exerted on present vicious
objects. But I know that your goodness of heart will interpose to
construe favourably, on all ny er: For the Lady's Miscellany.
rors, and pity sincerely where you STORY
cannot withold your blame: your of an unfortunate rouNG LADI.
judgment will direct how much of göritten by Herself,* in a let. my story may be communicated. ter to a Friend.
at home; but use not art to ex
tenuate. When I am gone, the To Miss LUCINDA CMy sudden departure from memory of departed penitence
will raise thai tenderness which I E-, and the uncertainty of even my most intimate friends, concern
had probably been without, if my
life had still continued a hur. ing my place of residencə, are cir.
then to myself, and a reproachful cumstances peculiarly unfavoura. ble to me at this time. Doubtless
calamity to my friends. they have long ere now, been in.
The morning of my unbappy terpreted much to my disadvan
existence arose with every beauty See the preceeding letter relative to that could bid fair for a cheerful
day. The youngest of an honora
hle family, I received every attcn- \ innocent because without temptation which the fondest of parents tion, but I knew not the value of could bestow, and as death bad that innocence antil I had lost it lessened our number, those atten -Every one said, I was a pattern tions were mine alone. My infant of youthful virtue and worth, but days glided with unusual pleasant none tauglit me to preserve that ness. Partial friends thought they il virtue and enlarge that worth. discovered a disposition, and an in. The elegance of apparel, the nocence in my early deportment | splendour of a ball-room, and the that rewarded their care,and might || variations of the fashion were comfort their old age. All around strongly recommended, and by . gave me credit for many virtues, me unremittingly considered as the want of which I have since sin objects of the most serious consecerely tamenled. Innocence in quence, Born to a family, distinyouth is 100 ofien but ignorance of li guished on acceunt of its merit, I vice. While I smiled on the Jap exulted in the pride of reputation of an enraptuieii mother, could she borrowed from hereditary worth : hiave discerned the true colour of and solaced myself with the reflecmy fute, she would have prayed tion (when I did rehect) that as that every hour might be my last.my reputatiou was untouched, it Facal is the mist of parental lan. was also invulnerable. My chardierness; -it blinds to the begin. || acier for innocence formed a senings of vice, and begeis habits of carily on which I detei mined to fund partiality which embitter dis rest an independent confidence. appointment.
Naturally gay and lively, I was by
education rendered more so. Ever Confiding in the promising res- \ prone to return the social smile, peci of my mind, she was less at. and re-echo the loud laugh of a ientire to cultivate and direct iis vacant mind, I had no propenpowers, to regulate its emotions, sily to anticipate misery. Abanand fill is vacancies, than to ado: n doning my imagination, and sacri. that outside which nature had fin. fiting my time to the delights of ished, and recommend isosc em the present moment, I left the days ployments which the vanity of of soriow to come when they youth is suficient of itself to point woull. Such a disposition could ont. Diess and finery were my. not fail of producing a dangerous cnly studies; youth and fly like thoughtlessness and inattention. my own my only companions. 1 Yet I thougot it an hapoy disposihd virtuous example before me tion--but it deepened the gloom daily : but wion the principles of lof that tempest which gathered J'ectitude are allowed to starve on around me, and bure on my dethe soul, it becomes , unambitious voted head when I was last abie pfi:s greatest excellence. I was so encounter is
About tv'o years ago I luccamel remie mber, that there are sacred' acquainted with Mr. ---, by bounds beyond which no female onc of these accidental interviews delicacy can subsisi which to for which there is no accounting overleap, is 10 hazard virtue auid from thi moment, however, I
character; it is to leave those date my ruin. ' Being of that age
paths which lead to supreme feli. when young females are surround- çily, and to wander in an alluring ed and pleased with the language but delusive country, fiom which of fattery, I observed, with satis there can be no return unburthenfaction, the many civilities with ed with remorse, misery, and which Mr. honored me;
sliame.' Let them learn 'of me, and as he frequently distinguished that this is not the age when inme from others, I contracted a gebuousness and open hearted liking to his company. His -ad conduct are in no danger from the dress was most insinuatins, his unfeeling and ticaeherous. appearance that of a man of honor them learn of me, that it is not an and sincerity, and his vices too elevation of rank, or the most cxclosely covered for my penetra- alted speculative purity and innotion. Had they been less so, my
cence which can screen them in thoughtlessness was too great to an hour of passion, unless they permit me to employ even the lit shelter themselves underthe wings tle discernment I did possess. He
of that angel, by whose power was skilled in dissimulationI
their weakness becomes strengih. was all ingenuousness. He knew Confiding in this, let them ielinthe human heart-he had traccquish all security in lesser help, back the corruption of his own,
or the unavailing consciousness / and could corrupt the hearts of 0.
harmless meaning. thers. I acquired the character
'The destroyer of my peace conof being affable-you know it.
tinued to take every niethod in his To me no grace seemed more at
power to ingratiate himself with tracting than affability, and both
These were not unsuccessnature and art conspired to make
ful. He soon inspired nie wiih it mine. In the company of all I
| the tenderest passion for bim ile was ingenious and free--but in
made me believe--an easy task to the company of I lost eve
A young, vain,and credulous mind! ry reserve. So deceiiful was his
--that the happiness or misery of exterior, that I thought myself not his future life deponded upon me. less sale will liim than with the
It was not in my power to give best of my own sex.
pain ; it was not for my years to But let such of them as can sill suspect his intentions. Gratitude boast of happiness unhurt bý guilt, for his distinguishing preference and virtuc unspolied by passion, seened not only a duty, but an
omotion peculiardy. amiable, and suggest;
Cruel wretch! these graceful at my age. In a word, were deep designs, too subtle, and what he seemed to seel, joined 100 well disguised for my slender with the impassionate, tenor of knowledge of mankind--too suchis whole conduct, land the most cessful against a mind softened inforcible claims on my affections. I to credulity, and weakened by unhadanenemy within myowo bosom
constrained gaiety. to second his attempts, an uni
Imperceptible were tbe gradaformed, inexperienced soul, that had not yet learned to suspect the
tions to my guik, for by slow and alluring pleasure which courted pleasurable steps he perverted my its embrace. I knew how to grati- judgment to a mistaken pliancy fy my inclinations, but I had not
that plunged me deeper into insenbeen taught to correct their luxe
sibility. Every circumstance, ao riancy when in an hurtsul channel.
round me conspired to hasten my He told me that love was the sa
ruio. Friends knew not my dan
His preme bliss of human life ; thai ilger--I knew it not myself. would be infinitely more so, is free
artful insinuations, like the arrow
chat flies in darkness, wounded my and unfettere:: by the tramels of man's invention ; that no emocions | reason, cre 1 yet was eonscious of could have been planted in our
their appaoach, and rendered me
idattentive to the measure of my breasts merely to be repelled, and
guilt. I was unmindful of the that youth was
he season made for unbounded pleasur
dignity of my character, because I
chid not yet know what it was to Lessons of this undoing import pine under the censure of mankind, , he whispered at first, in distinct | I was ungrateful to the best exerand casual expressions, but acco: d. tions of friendship, nor thought ing as he saw their influence, con that person my friend who dared tinued to instil them with firm. lo put a negative on my levity, ness, and maintained 'bis opinion But the time was not far off when with every specious argument, and I was 10 know what a void there every grace of language. Aided is in the human heart, when deby creclulity and negligence, they prived of the inestimable blessings suink c'eep into a mind alreally too of friendship and innocence. well prepared to receive them, and Heavens ! how would indignation where better principles had rise, could I recount half the artbeen placed to resist the aflacks ful snares laid for
my destruction; of sophistry and delusion. By in not a motion, nor a look that he junctions of the strictest silence, lo did not watch with attentive soliciwhich I faithfully acceded, he left tı:de to manifest his regard for me me exposed to every imprudence to promote his base pu. poses-that he could contrive, or my folly l l'es, Lucin da, the most charitable
bosom, however teeming with be those pernicioys palliatives to guilnevolence and philanthrophy, would ty indulgence quenched the few swell to madness, and the meek remaining sparks of expiring and forgiving soubehat never knew fortitude. lo chide, would curse such delibe. But, my dear Lucinda, join with rate attempts to ruin innocence. me in wisbing, that the young may May I be the last victim on this henceforth judge of no merit from dreadful shrine ! May his sex its external appearance, not even henceforth learn humanity, and of virtue if in a gaudy dress. Could our's wisdom ! May the time com I spare a tear from my own misery inence from this hour, when men
it should be shed over the many shall be eager to cherish and sup woes that await this unhappy land, por virtue, and woinen anxious to where vice wears the charm, of join affection and reputation, recti virtue, and virtue has lost the tude and love in the same bosom. strength of her empire. There
was a time when vice to be hated Yet in the moments of reflection needed only to be seer, but now it for none are free from those--it is gilded over with such cunning, may be thought I might have as to slide into our minds unseca found resolutjon sufficient to stop and unknown, until it begins to my father progress in delusion;
prey on our happiness.- Cursed be but, alas! these were fulled up the maxims of proligaie.pleasure, with employmeis, on which it is that unhappy lock on which şa imposible to look back without many mariners, in the voyage of anguish. He brought me many life berdlessly split ; and while the books for my perusal, written by laws of men neglect the cruel devicious and mercenary nien, who luder, nay the interposition of had much rather Butter the de
Heaven put a period to the reiza praved taste of a dissipated age, of this roa 19 yirl99, and s!ill the than make any efforts to correct
tumultuous bicast that ineditatcs it. From such books his argu. rebellion against the laws of huo ments found irresistable | manity ! - Am I unreasonably sestrength. The langrage of many
vere against the desirayers of sf them was clegant and persua peace ; or do they deserve piy? sive, the illusions frequent and --No--The child that is yet w?pleasing, and the whole decked
boi'n will e:c long improcre thie out in a dress of virtue and wisdom, avenging hand of heaven. The that could not fail to attracy, and aged parert anciender ti and will by attracting deceive. The fictions
pray for å speedy issue to de of love created in me its most
pride of losse uolus mensen dangerous sensibilities; my heart thirst after human happiness, and became weak ang susceptible. The sacrifice it to the impulse of a strug ;les of virtue were fuint