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sion that I have ever inhabited, and surrounded by suffering as we went all that could be suffered
It pleased God to carry us both through the jour-ney should never have seen again. Mrs. Unwin,
Hayley, who will some time or other I hope see
much to hear you. Adieu !
TO SAMUEL ROSE, ESQ.
MY DEAR FRIEND, Eartham, Aug. 14, 1792.
piness if you were of the party; I have prepared
fine season affords her opportunity to use, that ere
add in the way of news, except that Romney has
drawn me in crayons; by the suffrage of all here,
TO LADY HESKETH.
Eartham, August 26, 1792. but enjoy beautiful scenery, and converse agreeably. I know not how it is, my dearest Coz, but in a
Mrs. Unwin's health continues to improve; and new scene, and surrounded by strange objects, 1 even I, who was well when I came, find myself still find my powers of thinking dissipated to a degree better.
Yours, W.C. that makes it difficult to me even to write a let
(ter, and even a letter to you ; but such a letter as I
can, I will, and have the fairest chance to succeed TO MRS, COURTENAY. this morning, Hayley, Romney, Hayley's son, and
Beau, being all gone together to the sea for bathing. Eartham, August 25, 1792. The sea, you must know, is nine miles off, so that WITHOct waiting for an answer to my last, I unless stupidity prevent, I shall have an opportusend my dear Catharina the epitaph she desired, nity to write not only to you, but to poor Hurdis composed as well as I could compose it in a place also, who is broken-hearted for the loss of his fawhere every object, being still new to me, distracts ,vourite sister, lately dead: and whose letter, giving my attention, and makes me as awkward at verse an account of it, which I received yesterday, drew as if I had never dealt in it. Here it is.* tears from the eyes of all our party! My only
I am here, as I told you in my last, delightfully comfort respecting even yourself is, that you write situated, and in the enjoyment of all that the most in good spirits, and assure me that you friendly hospitality can impart; yet do I neither state of recovery; otherwise I should mourn not forget Weston, nor my friends at Weston; on the only for Hurdis, but for myself, lest a certain event contrary, I have at length, though much and should reduce me, and in a short time too, to a kindly pressed to make a longer stay, determined situation as distressing as his; for though nature on the day of our departure—on the seventeenth designed you only for my cousin, you have had a of September we shall leave Eartham; four days sister's place in my affections ever since I knew will be necessary to bring us home again, for I am you. The reason is, I suppose, that having no under a promise to General Cowper to dine with sister, the daughter of my own mother, I thought him on the way, which can not be done comforta- it proper to have one, the daughter of yours. Cerbly, either to him or to ourselves, unless we sleep tain it is, that I can by no means afford to lose that night at Kingston.
you; and that unless you will be upon honour with The air of this place has been, I believe, benefi- me, to give me always a true account of yourself, cial to us both. I indeed was in tolerable health at least when we are not together, I shall always be before I set out, but have acquired since I came unhappy, because always suspicious that you do both a better appetite, and a knock of sleeping al-ceive me. most as much in a single night as formerly in two. Now for ourselves. I am, without the least disWhether double quantities of that article will be simulation, in good health; my spirits are about as favourable to me as a poet, time must show. About good as you have ever seen them; and if increase myself however I care little, being made of mate- of appetite and a double portion of sleep be advarrials so tough, as not to threaten me even now, at tageous, such are the advantages that I have rethe end of so many lustrums, with any thing like ceived from this migration. As to that gloominess a speedy dissolution. My chief concern has been of mind, which I have had these twenty years, about Mrs. Unwin, and my chief comfort at this cleaves to me even here; and could I be translated moment is, that she likewise has received I hope to Paradise, unless I left my body behind me, considerable benefit by the journey.
would cleave to me even there also. It is my comTell my dear George that I begin to long to be- panion for life, and nothing will ever divorce us. hold him again; and did it not savour of ingrati- So much for myself
. Mrs. Unwin is evidently the tude to the friend, under whose roof I am so happy better for her jaunt, though by no means as she at present, should be impatient to find myself once was before this last attack; still wanting help when more under yours.
she would rise from her seat, and a support in Adieu, my dear Catharina. I have nothing to walking; but she is able to use more exercise than
she could at home, and moves with rather a less * Epitaph on Fop, a dog belonging to Lady Throckmorton. tottering step. God knows what he designs for
me; but when I see those, who are dearer to me
it is, my dearest Trounded by the thinking de alt to the flame i to rou; les e the first campes ey, Romer Herz
togetber do the know, is nie erent, I shall be ly to rou, but -hearted for thesis dead: and when zich i mamlade s of all our p125 ven yourets **
than myself, distempered and enfeebled, and wy-|pany as I have no doubt would suit you; all cheerself as strong as in the days of my youth, I tremble ful, but not noisy; and all alike disposed to love for the solitude in which a few years may place you: you and I seem to have here a fair opportume. I wish her and you to die before me, indeed, nity of meeting. It were a pity we should be in but not till I am more likely to follow immediately. the same county, and not come together. I am Enough of this!
here till the seventeenth of September, an interval Romney has drawn me in crayons, and in the that will afford you time to make the necessary opinion of all here, with his best hand, and with arrangements, and to gratify me at last with an the most exact resemblance possible.
interview which I have long desired. Let me hear The seventeenth of September is the day on from you soon, that I may have double pleasure, which I intend to leave Eartham. We shall then the pleasure of expecting as well as that of seeing have been six weeks resident here; a holiday time you. long enough for a man who has much to do. And Mrs. Unwin, I thank God, though still a sufferer now farewell!
W.C. by her last illness, is much better, and has received
considerable benefit by the air of Eartham. She P. S. Hayley, whose love for me seems to be adds to mine her affectionate compliments, and truly that of a brother, has given me his picture, joins me and Hayley in this invitation. drawn by Romney about fifteen years ago; an
Mr. Romney is here, and a young man, a couadinirable likeness.
sin of mine. I tell you who we are, that you may not be afraid of us.
Adieu! May the Comforter of all the afflicted
who seek him, be yours. God bless you. W.C. TO THE REV. MR. HURDIS.
MY DEAR SIR,
Eartham, August 26, 1790.
TO LADY HESKETH.
I DETERMINE, if possible, to send you one more both knew the moment we saw it from whom it letter, or at least, if possible, once more to send you came; and observing a red seal, both comforted something like one, before we leave Eartham. But ourselves that all was well at Burwash: but we I am in truth so unaccountably local in the use soon felt that we were called not to rejoice, but to of my pen, that, like the man in the fable, who mourn with you—we do indeed sincerely mourn could leap well no where but at Rhodes, I am inwith you; and if it will afford you any consolation capable of writing at all, except at Weston. This to know it, you may be assured that every eye is, as I have already told you, a delightful place; here has testified what our hearts have suffered more beautiful scenery I have never beheld, nor for you. Your loss is great, and your disposition expect to behold; but the charms of it, uncommon I perceive such as exposes you to feel the whole as they are, have not in the least alienated my weight of it; I will not add to your sorrow by a affections from Weston. The genius of that place vain attempt to assuage it; your own good sense suits me better, it has an air of snug concealment, and the piety of your principles will, of course, in which a disposition like mine feels itself pecusuggest to you the most powerful motives of acqui- liarly gratified; whereas here I see from every winescence in the will of God. You will be sure to dow, woods like forests, and hills like mountains, a recollect that the stroke, severe as it is, is not the wildness, in short, that rather increases my natural stroke of an enemy, but of a father; and will find melancholy, and which, were it not for the agreeI trust hereafter that like a father he has done you ables I find within, would soon convince me that good by it. Thousands have been able to say, and mere change of place can avail me little. Accordmyself as loud as any of them, it has been good for ingly I have not looked out for a house in Sussex, me that I was afflicted; but time is necessary to nor shall. work us to this persuasion, and in due time it shall The intended day of our departure continues to be yours. Mr. Hayley, who tenderly sympathises be the seventeenth. I hope to reconduct Mrs. Unwith you, has enjoined me to send you as pressing win to the Lodge with her health considerably an invitation as I can frame, to join me at this mended: but it is in the article of speech chiefly, place. I have every motive to wish your consent. and in her powers of walking, that she is sensible Both your benefit and my own, which I believe of much improvement. Her sight and her hand would be abundantly answered by your coming, still fail her, so that she can neither read nor work; ought to make me eloquent in such a cause. Here mortifying circumstances both to her, who is never you will find silence and retirement in perfection, willingly idle. when you would seek them; and here such com On the eighteenth I purpose to dine with the
General, and to rest that night at Kingston; but aggregate. In these circumstances I find myself the pleasure I shall have in the interview will so indisposed to writing, that save to yourself I hardly be greater than the pain I shall feel at the would on no account attempt it; but to you I will end of it, for we shall part probably to meet no give such a recital as I can of all that has passed more.
since I sent you that short note from Kingston, Johnny, I know, has told you that Mr. Hurdis knowing that if it be a perplexed recital, you will is here. Distressed by the loss of his sister, he has consider the cause, and pardon it. I will begin renounced the place where she died for ever, and with a remark in which I am inclined to think you is about to enter on a new course of life at Oxford. will agree with me, that there is sometimes more You would admire him much He is gentle in his true heroism passing in a corner, and on occasions manners, and delicate in his person, resembling that make no noise in the world, than has often our poor friend Unwin, both in face and figure, been exercised by those whom that world esteems more than any one I have ever seen. But he has her greatest heroes, and on occasions the most 1not, at least he has not at present, his vivacity. lustrious; I hope so at least; for all the hervism I
I have corresponded since I came here with have to boast, and all the opportunities I have of Mrs. Courtenay, and had yesterday a very kind displaying any, are of a private nature. After writletter from her.
ing the note I immediately began to prepare for Adieu, my dear: may God bless you. Write my appointed visit to Ham; but the struggles that to me as soon as you can after the twentieth. I I had with my own spirit, labouring as I did under shall then be at Weston, and indulging myself in the most dreadful dejection, are never to be told. I the hope that I shall ere long see you there also. would have given the world to have been excused.
W.C. I went, however, and carried my point against
myself with a heart riven asunder--I have reasons
for all this anxiety which I can not relate now. The TO WILLIAM HAYLEY, ESQ.
visit however passed off well, and we returned in
the dark to Kingston. I with a lighter heart than The Sun, at Kingston, Sept. 18, 1792. I had known since my departure from Eartham, MY DEAR BROTHER,
and Mary too, for she had suffered hardly less With no sinister accident to retard or terrify than myself
, and chiefly on my account. That us, we find ourselves, at a quarter before one, ar- night we rested well in our inn, and at twenty rived safe at Kingston. I left you with a heavy minutes after eight next morning set off for Lonheart, and with a heavy heart took leave of our don; exactly at ten we reached Mr. Rose's door; dear Tom, at the bottom of the chalk-hill. But we drank a dish of chocolate with him, and prosoon after this last separation my troubles gushed ceeded, Mr. Rose riding with us as far as St. Al from my eyes, and then I was better.
ban's. From this time we met with no impediWe must now prepare for our visit to the Ge- ment. In the dark, and in a storm, at eight at neral. I add no more therefore than our dearest night, we found ourselves at our own back door. remembrances and prayers that God may bless you Mrs. Unwin was very near slipping out of the and yours, and reward you an hundred-fold for chair in which she was taken from the chaise, but all your kindness. Tell Tom I shall always hold at last was landed safe. We all have had a goed him dear for his affectionate attentions to Mrs. night, and are all well this morning. Unwin. From her heart the memory of him can God bless you, my dearest brother. W.C. never be erased. Johnny loves you and has his share in all these acknowledgments. Adieu.
TO WILLIAM HAYLEY, ESQ.
Weston, Oct. 2, 1792.
A Bad night, succeeded by an east wind, and a
sky all in sables, have such an effect upon my MY DEAR HAYLEY, Weston, Sept. 21, 1792. spirits, that if I did not consult my own comfort
Chaos himself, even the Chaos of Milton, is not more than yours, I should not write to-day, for I surrounded with more confusion, nor has a mind shall not entertain you much: get your letter
, more completely in a hubbub, than I experience at though containing no very pleasant tidings
, has the present moment. At our first arrival, after afforded me some relief. It tells me, indeed, that long absence, we find an hundred orders to ser- you have been dispirited yourself, and that poor vants necessary, a thousand things to be restored little Tom, the faithful squire of my Mary, has to their proper places, and an endless variety of been seriously indisposed; all this grieves me, but minutiæ to be adjusted; which, though individually then there is a warmth of heart, and a kindness of little importance, are most momentous in the in it, that do me good. I will endea your not to
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repay you in notes of sorrow and despondence, who will tell me in a few days that he has seen though all my sprightly chords seem broken. In you. Your wishes to disperse my melancholy truth, one day excepted, I have not seen the day would, I am sure, prevail, did that event depend when I have been cheerful, since I left you. My on the warmth and sincerity with which you spirits, I think, are almost constantly lower than frame them; but it has baffled both wishes and they were: the approach of winter is perhaps the prayers, and those the most fervent that could be cause; and if it is, I have nothing better to ex- made, so many years, that the case seems hopepect for a long time to come.
less. But no more of this at present. Yesterday was a day of assignation with my Your verses to Austen are as sweet as the self, the day of which I said some days before it honey that they accompany; kind, friendly, witty, came, when that day comes I will begin my dis- and clegant. When shall I be able to do the like? sertations. Accordingly when it came I prepared perhaps when my Mary, like your Tom, shall
to do so; filled a letter-case with fresh paper, fur- cease to be an invalid, I may recover a power at w) at least; in al des nished myself with a pretty good pen, and reple- least to do something. I sincerely rejoice in the
nished my ink-bottle; but partly from one cause, dear little man's restoration. My Mary continues, of a private len ik and partly from another, chiefly however from I hope, to mend a little.
W. C. distress and dejection, after writing and obliteratJo Ham; fed ia se ing about six lines, in the composition of which I spent near an hour, I was obliged to relinquish
TO JOHN JOHNSON, ESQ. the attempt. An attempt so unsuccessful could
have no other effect than to dishearten me, and it MY DEAREST JOHNNY, Weston, Oct. 19, 1792. and carried os harhad that effect to such a degree that I know You are too useful when you are here not to be
not when I shall find courage to make another. missed on a hundred occasions' daily: and too At present I shall certainly abstain, since at pre- much domesticated with us not to be regretted alsent I can not well afford to expose myself to the ways. I hope therefore that your month or six
W. C. weeks will not be like many that I have known,
capable of being drawn out into any length what
ever, and productive of nothing but disappointTO WILLIAM HAYLEY, ESQ.
I have done nothing since you went, except that Weston, Oct. 13, 1792. I have composed the better half of a sonnet to I began a letter to you yesterday, my dearest Romney; yet even this ought to bear an earlier brother
, and proceeded through two sides of the date, for I began to be haunted with a desire to cing with sheet; but so much of my nervous fever found its do it long before we came out of Sussex, and
way into it, that looking it over this morning I de- have daily attempted it ever since.
It would be well for the reading part of the I have risen, though not in good spirits, yet in world, if the writing part were, many of them, as better than I generally do of late, and therefore dull as I am. Yet even this small produce, which will not address you in the melancholy tone that my steril intellect has hardly yielded at last, may
serve to convince you that in point of spirits I am I began to be restless about your portrait, and not worse. say, how long shall have to wait for it? I In fact, I am a little better. The powders and wished it here for many reasons: the sight of it the laudanum together have, for the present at will be a comfort to me, for I not only love, but least
, abated the fever that consumes them; and am proud of you, as of a conquest made in my in measure as the fever abates, I acquire a less old
age. Johnny goes to town on Monday, on discouraging view of things, and with it a little purpose to call on Romney, to whom he shall power to exert myself. give all proper information concerning its convey In the evenings I read Baker's Chronicle to ance hither. The name of a man, whom I es- Mrs. Unwin, having no other history, and hope teem as I do Romney, ought not to be unmusical in time to be as well versed in it as his admirer in my ears; but his name will be so, till I shall Sir Roger de Coverley.
W. C. have paid him a debt justly due to him, by doing such poetical honours to it as I intend. Heaven knows when that intention will be executed, for TO JOHN JOHNSON, ESQ. the Muse is still as obdurate and as coy as ever.
Your kind postscript is just arrived, and gives MY DEAR JOHNNY, Weston, Oct. 22, 1792. me great pleasure. When I can not see you my
Here am I with I know not how many letters self
, it seems some comfort however that you to answer, and no time to do it in. I exhort you, have been seen by another known to me; and therefore, to set a proper value on this, as proving
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